boo~

i had a strange dream ytd. i dreamt tt i saw this guy and for some reason i felt very happy to see him (? some old friend? the face was blurred) and we started to walk. the guy reached out to hold my hand and he asked after holding if he could hold my hand. -.- i didn't resist in the dream. oh maybe the guy was junki. lol. anw i woke up and thought, what's the point of asking after you held the girl's hand? but it's equally weird to ask for permission too. hahah. maybe it shld just come naturally. i don't know? but i think if any guy tries to do anything funny to me without warning i will be tempted to slap him. but then again. holding hands is not a big deal la. okay fine. if you want to hold my sweaty palms, you can come and try.

it's such a random dream. it must be my mum's fault. ever since i told her one day that i don't want to get married, she's been telling me that i will need a companion when i get old.

relationships are for people with time to spare. haha. i guess this is a very terrible sweeping statement. i'm not that busy. truth is, i'm really not interested. or maybe i am this neutral body that does not send out any electric signals and likewise is unable to receive any signals.

so maybe relationships are not for people with simple minds. simple minded people like me have no spare brain cells to think about relationships when they can't finish 70% of the things on their agenda everyday.

but i've been talking about relationships as something "spare". when relationships really mean alot to some people. i can't explain why i view it in this way. in this disinterested manner. is it skepticsm. or is it fear. or is it just an uninformed view coming from a person without experience?

maybe one day when all my friends get attached, only then will i start to panick. lol. i hope that day won't come. the panicking bit. sounds desperate. yar, maybe when that day comes, i will 1) become a bitter, sarcastic old spinster who hates children and valentine's day. or 2) become a nagging 2nd mother to my friends, saying mothers' favourite lines: "hurry get married!/ hurry have children!", so that i can play with their children and subsequently grandchildren. or 3) send my application to all sorts of dating agencies and scare every partner away with talks of marriage on first dates. or 4) migrate to another country when i grow old and useless and unproductive (in terms of procreation) to reduce sg's ageing population.

lol.

just some wuliao thoughts on the last day of the sem's recess week.

ja ne~ time to study^^