飄著 - 孫燕姿

空气中
呼吸都凝著
我讓思考放空
看你轉身上樓
我知道
這就是答案了
還能怎么感受
那殘余的溫柔

當黑夜清晰過白晝
當快樂賠上了所有
當理智熬不過放縱
你的神色什么都淡了
我還守著愛飄著

da la la la...

你回頭
就像往常笑著
好像在原諒我
綁住你的自由

當黑夜清晰過白晝
當快樂賠上了所有
當理智熬不過放縱
我的神色什么都算了
卻還守著愛飄著

錯在明知是錯
快樂該怎么選擇
我愛錯
我只能選擇沉默
不該嘶吼

當盲目的黑夜
清晰過白晝
當奢侈的快樂
賠上了所有
當假裝的理智
熬不過放縱
每個路口
怎么轉都錯
我進退不得
誰救我

飛不進你夢中
偷一點感受
飛不回原來我
冰冷的軀殼
就這樣漂浮著
悲傷的穿梭
感覺掏空
靈魂不在了
愛情突然失重
在飄著

da la la la...

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the dinosaur is a new creation(:.

boo. bored so doodled randomly(:.

<<綠野仙蹤>> is the Chinese version of Wizard of Oz, proudly presented to you by the Young People's Performing Arts Ensemble, 青少儿广播演艺组 (Since 1973). Details are available in the above poster. It's a production ky has been working on since beginning of the year. Please support! =).

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p.s. As the poster is rather small although i set it as its largest size, I'll list the details here:

Performance times:
3.30PM/ 31st March 2007
8.00PM/ 31st March 2007
5.00PM/ 1st April 2007

Venue: Victoria Theatre

Ticket Prices: $18, $20, $22

Ticketing hotline: 6336 6776

Visit the website @ www.yppae.org for more details.

BOO!

today was a tiring dayyyyy~

but did have FUN=).

weather was lovely.

my dearest p5s and p6s could entertain themselves with their scooters/bikes/soccer balls/kites, so i was mainly with the younger ones.. ran around with ms han and mr kok first, then brought the group of them to the playground.. they were well entertained by the different playthings.. didn't have to rack my brains about entertaining them with my own games. heh. sat on a swing fr some time! ha ha! i miss swinging! tried to teach ms kok how to cycle, so my hands feel abit sore from gripping the front gear and back seat of the 2-wheeled bike. this trip made me wanna CYCLE. the bike kiosks are back!! hurray. the kites were cheap too! selling at $2.90. anyone is game fr a trip to pasir ris park? bring me please=). and although the marble cake i baked and brought was not madly popular, but mr han and ms wong were esp happy with it, and in the end the kids still finished eating eat as kids from bedok and hougang branches joined us. their hearts were on playing, not eating. if it were at the centre itself, the cake would hv been finished in no time. mrs yong's chicken rice had been v popular at the centre too, but some complained it was too cold and hard today. tssks.

yaay. i love baking.

i want to learn how to make icing.

hanakimi OST!!!!! i'm COMiNG~~

i want to eat oysters and mussels. got to eat oysters ytd. but i want MORE=b.

yumm. i love strawberries.


so long then. jaa.

“你不知道的﹐我都知道。”

BOO!

previous week was feeling rather disheartened and discouraged.. but felt better this week. i guess...exam stress applies to everyone, even at primary school levels. fair enough. the huge malignant monster named stress is EVERYWHERE.

but thursday was a horrible day=S. mr lim, please stop being rude to me. i don't want to tolerate your attitude anymore. the next time you repeat your rudeness, i will not just show that i'm pissed (which you are blind to anw), i will punish you. (mr yong once told me joey made him stand in the open space outside the rooms with a piece of paper attached to him- but i forgot what she wrote- but apparently it made him cry. hmm. i guess that's the best kind of punishment for arrogant people with too much pride stuffed in their chests) i will show you that i am no pushover. what's the point of being intelligent when you don't know respect? by not showing others respect, you are not giving yourself respect.

>(.

friday was normal. in fact i was rather free. enjoyed my peace, with some disruption from mr neo and mr seet who found fighting funny and enjoyable. watched the free show until things got a bit rough and hooligan-ish so i chased them out. boys tend to be more physical, so long they don't inflict hurt on purpose or be too violent, i guess it's their way of communication? =S. ha. but generally i'll holler and they'll probably listen for 2 seconds and continue their fight outside the room.

my dear boys. i really don't ask much. i just ask for a little bit more concentration, a little more cohesion, a little less trouble. don't make me dread going to work~

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went to NUS and NTU's open houses today. hm. ended up being more confused. but ultimately i think i'll still stick to my decision. yup. i will still apply for both (meanwhile rack brains fr the NTU 300word essay), if they both accept me, i will go with the original plan. i do not doubt the quality of the education in terms of the resources and experience, but i'm wondering about the relationship or camaraderie between the professors and students. mm.

quite decided that staying in hostel is a nono in my freshman year. hall life is something i would want to experience, but i don't think i would want to introduce so many changes in my life just yet. haa. i am generally not a risk-taker.

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HURRAY. excited about the date with the girls on coming friday, and GYA outing on a GOOOOOD Friday. MAHAS.

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LAO TIAN! give me good weather on monday, alright alright alright? =)). really very much appreciated.

boo.

managed to wake at 6.30am. i guess when i really hv something important to attend, waking up is still not a big problem:).

i love morning shifts.

it was peaceful being able to see the little heads concentrating over their work, doing their papers quietly, occasionally asking qns. although they did get wild while playing, at least they are focussed. awww. why are my p1s and 2s such adorable kids. eh no they aren't mine (as in my students)..=((. hahahh. i've been getting more and more fedup with my p6s, they are going from okay to bad to worse. sighh. and they're bad influence for p5 boys. my p5s tend to make less trouble. they don't stir trouble unnecessarily. stubborn yes, answer back yes, talkative yes, but they don't create trouble on purpose. one should be more and more able to handle one's job better as time passes right, but it seems to be going downhill for me instead. =/. nvm. i'll just constantly remind myself a BLACK FACE is compulsory. =S. ROAR. and i must make new plans. new month, new plans! hv to think about the seating arrangement, draw up some ground rules, maybe get a cane, and think up of suitable punishments, and implement the little dictionary idea. lol. i sound like some sadistic old witch out to torture poor innocent kids. wells. it's thanks to them that nice sweet easygoing yc has turned wicked. heh heh.

i really love morning shifts.

i must grab dear small little miss k. han one day and tk photo with her. haha.

and they were great company. didn't think of the collecting of results one bit whilst i was with them.

but nerves caught up with me thereafter.

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had a terrible scare before i finally decided to look at my results slip. my result slip looks like some crumpled rubbish now. i admit i was nervy. much too nervy. can you imagine tearing even before i knew my darned results? haa. but there is a valid reason behind it. i thought i'd scored a mixture of B and Cs. that is what comes out me trying to peek at my results upside down. =S. the usual stupid yc self. but anw, i'm happy with my results. it was a pleasant shock. stupid tear glands were active. i thought i'd grown stronger over the these 2 years, but the stress just broke the barriers down. heh. congrats to all those highfliers! and i'm proud of my dearest friends who did sooo well *beeg hug*.

wellllls. it's finally OVER. now i can go pore over the nus and ntu websites and make some sense out of the shared major single major stuff. =X. it's all written in plain english, but i can't seem to understand much. and time to go find out the university system, those modules, credits, minors and whatnots which i can't unds currently (hai. wo zhen wu zhi.__.) =/.

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jaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ne((:.

heyyya.

hmm. according to my hp and comp clock- the time is 11.29PM. oh it just turned 11.30PM. this means there are officially 30 minutes more to Friday, 2nd March. why this sudden precision about time and dates? wells. i suppose the answer is clear to all who took cambridge "A" levels this november. whether or not confident, i'm sure every candidate will be nervous in their own way. the highfliers will be feverishly hoping to get their 4As plus distinctions. i'm on the other extreme end. feverishly hoping i'll be able to make it to university. counting As have never been a habit of mine in my 2 years of jc life. i'm not being pessimistic. just being practical. =/.

mixed feelings. ambivalent. i do feel numb. with those rumours that claimed the release of results will be early feb, till it should be before cny, then the week right after cny, till this official date. i feel panicky. i feel scared. i feel worried. this concerns my future directly. naturally i will want to not do badly. i've never been the exactly competitive sort, but i hate feeling lousy about lousy results. and i can't imagine how i'm supposed to handle the disappointment, the dismay, the regrets, if i do not make the mark. and of cos the family bit. the guilt of being such a failure in a family of scholars. i feel silly getting the jitters about getting back results. this is something i must face up to, that i can't escape from, but i'm still wishing that i'll never have to know the truth. and it's better to know the results, for worse or for better, so that i can move on and make new plans for my future accordingly. =X.

obviously i'm contradicting myself. i AM being pessimistic. but it may not be, in a way, pessimism. it may just be facing bare facts. whatever it is, i think i can deal with pessimism turned a pleasant surprise, rather than optimism turned a whole world turned upside down. =S.

listening to hei se mao yi over and over again.

had been thinking of what song could soothe my current weird mood.

it's such a nice song.

11.56PM. =!. how am i supposed to wake at 6plus tmr morning? i can't imagine.

anw went to see hj off. she's gg to hangzhou for 4 months with np. booo. why can't i pack into a 3rd luggage bag and fly off with her?? haha. immersion programmes are so nice.

haven't been thinking much about tdy (12.01AM, 2 March 2007). i guess hanakimi is a good distraction=). liking xiuyi more and more:). QUAN:D.

okkay. sleeping monster's on its nightly prowl! g'nite!!

jaaaa.