see the doll i made (ytd or the day before ytd i think)! ((:.

http://elouai.com/doll-makers/new-dollmaker-javascript.php?sex=girl&background=0161&elements=0000&wings=0000&base=0001&girlstockings=0000&girlshoes=0458&girlskirt=0085&girltop=0421&girltwopiece=0000&head=0060&mouth=0109&nose=0039&eyebrows=0001&eyes=0117&face=0059&makeup=0000&earings=0000&glasses=0000&hair=0090&scarf=0000&girlfullbody=0000&hat=0000&accessory1=0448&pets1=0060&pets2=0000&accessory2=0000&cover=0000

nice rite? =) hahaa.. i was bored you see.

[#138]

Taken from today's zaobao, xianzai pg26.

Between 1925 and 1926, British Children writer A. A. Milne created Winnie the Pooh, the fuzzy little bear who taught us what it means to be a friend.

"Are we going to be friends forever?" asked Piglet. "Even longer." Pooh answered.

"Promise me you'll never forget me because if I thought you would I'd never leave."



"You can't stay in your corner of the Forest waiting for others to come to you. You have to go to them sometimes."

"It isn't much fun for One, but Two can stick together."

"Just because an animal is large, it doesn't mean he doesn't want kindness. However big Tigger seems to be, remember he wants as much kindness as Roo."

"If the person you are talking to doesn't appear to be listening, be patient. It may simply be that he has a small piece of fluff in his ear."

((:

how true. simple but true. and innocent. that's why i love winnie the pooh stories. haha. sweet. uncomplicated.

talk more nxt time..... vampires' time!!!

[#137]

my mummy is sooo pro with baking cakes nowadays. haha. mummy rocks (:! whee~ i wanna learn how to bake cakes too! but i think i shld start with baking cookies and brownies.. ohman i really want to learn how to bakeee pastries too!

went to chaguan today.. had fun mkg the tea.. haha.. rather cool la.. i liked the tealeafegg! (;. and i suspect the person incharge of the chaguan is the same speaker lpp invited to give us a talk on cha dao during wen yi ying last yr or last last yr.. loll.. everything just seemed a little familiar.. too bad no ex-dhscs ppl were arnd except erh edwin....... hur hur. anw aft tt we went to bugis to walkwalk.. me ky chiagu vann yunting n enghar~ and we pissed off a shopowner.. i dunno what's wrong with the shopowner lar.. she was damned bushuang the minute the grp of us stepped into her shop and look arnd abit at the clothes. what's her problem? just because we are a grp of STUDENTS in SCH U, she has the right to keep hinting that we are unwelcomed? like for example brandishing her black glum face at us as often as she cld, saying "excuse me" loudly (what's the use of saying these polite terms if you do not mean it at all?).. so what if we are nt buying anything but just looking arnd aimlessly? that's what shopping is for. shopping doesn't always mean tt you have got to buy sth. hrmph. i will nvr buy anything frm the shop. altho the off shoulder top looked really nice. haha. vann looked nice in the outfit she tried:). don't like it when students shop in sch u and gt funny looks frm shopowners and restaurants tt say: "don't come in if you don't have the money."

took neos with vann, ky and chiagu~:) wheeeee! haha.. finally. think the photos came out nice (:. hehe some time since i took prints.. lalala~ and i like tt machine! i like the printing as well. heh.

had this mini farewell party sorta thing for xu ls, ms meta and mr ong.. ordered pizza, had hm-baked brownies (thnks yunting and co!), and chips and drinks.. sad tt xu ls won't be teaching us anymore.. we will miss him. miss him lameness and niceness. he's really a very nice teacher who's willing to extend a helpg hand whenever we need him and who bothers to bond with students and unds us. :) thnk you simon.. we will think of you de. will miss the teacher who wldn't follow us up.. don't wanna miss ms wong cos i want her to follow us up nxt yr! *sniff* sighh. all along i'd thought tt all our teachers will follow us up to j2. and our tj principal mrs lim is leaving us as well.. the farewell concert for her was lovely and sweet neh.. altho hadn't any contact with her, i'm still impressed by her efforts in showing true care and concern for the students, her efforts in trying her best to be involved in the student-related events, sports competitions.. and touched by her speech. ya. whatever tribulations or unhappy events we go thru, at home or in school, they will help to mould us into better people.. sigh.

heard mr kiw had stepped down from his discipline master's post. but he'll stay on at dhs to cont teaching chinese.. guess dhs will be undergoing major changes for the nxt few years.. and all the teachers who've taught me.. i wonder if they will stay on.. and i wonder how it will be like when i return to the new dhs campus yrs later. i guess i will feel the distance then. it will be sad. dhs jiayou! =).

hmmz. some ppl arnd me are dropping frm 4subj to 3subj.. when i think about econs, i dunno whether i shld feel regret for tking it up.. or shld i still feel blessed, cos i got to know ms wong who's miniature and cute and a goooood tutor, got into this scg of 1505 which i am appreciating and liking more and more each day. i make choices and i tell myself i wouldn't regret. even if i feel any doubts creeping in, i will sweep them away. yep. since i'd decided to tk this route, i jolly well gt on with it. complete it. finish it. taking up economics was because it was something brand new, exciting, and wells convenient. cos seriously i cldn't think of other subjs to tk on.. science subjs had been out cos my phy was impossible, chem too lousy, bio nt possible without chem. history was nt within my choice cos i know it's difficult to score cos the notes may not be really sufficient and "reading up on your own" isn't my favourite past-time. i hate geog (somehow i do. since sec2). e lit was a bit off cos i know my eng isn't tt strong. but i actually do find econs interesting. but it's really getting heavy. :(. i don't understand my stuff. i find it difficult to keep up with the lects cos those sentences of words are really just gibberish cos i can't unds at all. it's exasperating. i hate nt comprehending. and tutorials getting stressful cos i realize i unds very little... micro was fine.. until macro came along. i somehow just can't seem click on with econs and unds some of those mechanisms. if i had a choice, maybe i wld drop econs off. but. econs is still a challenge tt i want to overcome. but anyhow, i have to tk up this challenge in any case since i'm a 3-sub-er. much as i xian mu all those ppl who have the choice to drop a subject. i must persevere!! i don't have much of a choice anw altho my natural flair for econs is really low. but wo bu ke yi fang qi! sigh. jiayouu. tho i still feel zi bei. already handling one subj lesser than others. but i don't see myself doing btr. :(. nvm. i've gt to pick myself up anyway. lifeee goes on! i'll tk it in my stride. i must zhen xi this chance of promoting and really mug hardd.

string of thoughts broken... shall cont tmr (:.

i want to go abroad..

i want to sit on a plane..

[#136]

some more quizes..

Your dating personality profile: Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active. Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life.

Your date match profile: Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart. Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living. Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Liberal 2. Athletic 3. Adventurous 4. Big-Hearted 5. Practical 6. Funny 7. Intellectual 8. Wealthy/Ambitious 9. Sensual 10. Shy

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Funny 2. Practical 3. Adventurous 4. Athletic 5. Conservative 6. Big-Hearted 7. Intellectual 8. Outgoing 9. Wealthy/Ambitious 10. Traditional

Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions

athletic? o.O"?? yar i will like someone who can mk me laugh (;.

You Are a Little Scary

You've got a nice edge to you. Use it.

bweahhs. BAH.

[#135]

gt these frm choccy's blog. guess we are all bored pple. xP. ohh sought out other new ones. nice quizzie place. haha.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

oooh. haha.. quite true ;).

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest: You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future. At Your Lowest: You feel in a slump and lack creativity. In Love: You tend to be many people's ideal partner. How You're Attractive: You make people feel confident and accepted. Your Eternal Question: "What Impression Am I Giving?"

dont agree abt the love part.. haha.. but quite true on others lala.

You Should Get a MFA (Masters of Fine Arts)

You're a blooming artistic talent, even if you aren't quite convinced.You'd make an incredible artist, photographer, or film maker.

yeaa RIGHT.

Your IQ Is 105

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Exceptional Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional Your General Knowledge is Average

wa ha has. mathematical intelligence exceptional? *shakes head*

Your 1920's Name is:

Evangeline Queen

eeeee. i don't like this name.

You Are Likely a Second Born

At your darkest moments, you feel inadequate.At work and school. you do best when you're evaluating.When you love someone, you offer them constructive criticism. In friendship, you tend to give a lot of feedback - positive and negative.Your ideal careers are: accounting, banking, art, carpentry, decorating, teaching, and writing novels.You will leave your mark on the world with art and creative projects.

second born?? *scratches head*

You Are 50% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...But too damn weird to do anything about it!

lol.

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

hrmmmmmmmms.

You Are Internal - Realist - Powerful

You feel your life is controlled internally.If you want something, you make it happen.You don't wait around for things to go your way.You value your independence and don't like others to have control. You are a realist when it comes to luck.You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random.You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...But you do your best to try to make your own luck. When it comes to who's in charge, it's you.Life is a kingdom, and you're the grand ruler.You don't care much about what others think.But they better care what you think!

isn't it contradicitg? idealist? realist? hmms.

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

heheh.

Your Mood Ring is Light Purple

CleverWittySharp

this is REAALLY chao ji LAME.

Your Mood Ring is Light Blue

Emotions mixedUnsettledCool

heh. sEE! different again. my mood chg so easily de mar?

Your Mood Ring is Blue-Green

Inner emotions chargedYet, somewhat relaxed

hahaha. i moved the mouse slower this time. jus now i was fast. =.="

How You Live Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

seems rather accurate (;.

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

serious? lol.

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Happy Go Lucky Priest. Where You Lived: West Africa. How You Died: Buried alive.

dorrrrrrts! buried alive? mygdness.

You Are 15 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

*congratulations!*

Your Hair Should Be Blue

Wild, brilliant, and out of control.You're a risk taker with an eye to the future.

BLUE?!

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.But you may be ready in a couple of years.You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

mmmm.

think i shld stop doing.. hahaa.. wasting minutes of my life away.. ;p.. but yepps. mks my blog look more interestg (;. bleah. haha..

[#134]

tralalala. changed my blogskin. i like this lots. i like the feeling of it.. the colours.. it's just damn cool la. getting sick of the blueness of the previous skin.. haha.. is my fickleness showing? hmmm. i just like to chg skins every now and then. signifies diff stages in my life (yea right) mar. haha.. this design isn't too complicated, nor plain.. has archives.. and stars (!!)..

back and legs still aching.. getting old.. shld train up during the hols. during the hols. during the hols. during the hols. wow. i have got to finish math hol hw.. review the whole yr's math chps.. mug math.. start to find tt spark of interest for math. there's hong lou meng as well. and there are still days which i want to meet up with ppl like ny ppl, dhs ppl.. ohmann. 05A5 outing! and just signed up to be on the comm (concert i/c) for leo's dec street camp.. hmmms. but the holidays are but 2 months. and kinda glad i didn't sign up for any job shadowing or internship stuff.. muggin math alone can tk up most of the hols le.. i do math at an extremely slow pace..... and i've gt to chg tt attitude twds math. nxt yr i will resolve to be a mugger.. with or without life.. can't care anymore.. ultimate goal is to gt As and Bs for the "A"s. life isn't all abt academics. but without the grades, other things = mian tan. yep. need to focus.

eyes closing........ shall memo script again once thru before slpg.. and i will nt gt nervous as the presentation time draws nearer.. who carres?! we will do a whopping great job tmr (;. i think our grp still lacks tt mo qi.. somehow la.. haha.. we tend to influence one another in a negative way. nvm. we can do it =D.

alright. looking fwd to 2o06. wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooorld cup! wahas..

and you know. sometimes birthdays are so nice to look fwd to. somehow la. haha. in any case i know i will def have a nice birthday cake and nice celebn with my family. whee! sisters will come bck frm their overseas trips, and kor will be bck frm reservice. :).

i am a happy gurl.

i can be one.

drifting away...

like a piece of log.

zzzZzz.

*jumps*

*MY GAWD*

a stupid creepy crawlie crawled onto my leg. go awayyy!! i hate insects tt attack your house on rainy days. GO AWAAAAY.

quizzzzies. random.

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child.Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.You cherish all of the details in life.Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

=).

Your Monster Profile

Omega Strangler You Feast On: Grass You Lurk Around In: Corn Fields You Especially Like to Torment: Hipsters

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

[#133]

heyhey.. been bz so haven't updated on the last few days..

saturday

1505 had our first ever bbQ! hahaz.. wellls, met up with ky and yinghui to buy da food.. kept quite well within e budget.. :P.. haha.. met up with all the others at the mrt and we proceeded to the bbq pit.. simon (xu ls) met us as well.. we'd invited simon, mr ong and ms meta mar (:.. (^^,) we reached the pit arnd 6pm++.. and by 8.45pm the fire was still not started!!! arghhhs. can you imagine how wonderful the charcoals were.. *_*~ simon and the other guys (and ltr when mr ong came he also chup in to help) tried their best.. but yarr.. the fire jus wldnt start! it didn't seem like it was the charcoal's fault either cos the pit nxt nxt to us used the same brand as us but their fire was burning merrily.. in the end we kuped red hot charcoal frm their pit.. hehe.. they were a bunch of anderson sec students.. thnks yar! haha.. and yea boonhan's ahma's beehoon was nice! i lurve cookg marshmallows! yuummm. chiagu came ltr and me ky sam meiq ran 2 bus stops to gt to her.. >< running ="p..">sunday

went hougang cc to sing karaoke with yun, sh, hongz, heng, hao and just~! all 7 of us.. haha.. nan de.. but nobody brought a cam.. if nt we cld have taken a pict to zuo ji nian.. heng booked a nice big rm for us:).. mummy surprisgly let me ponned the yoga cls.. wahahhas. met up with yun and sh for lunchh.. showed them the pooh cross stitch i'm doing.. (and i havent done a stitch since sunday).. we sang lotsa songs.. altho we weren't very high.. but it was still nice to ju zai yi qi.. =) and hong's tamagotchi was sooooo cuuute! honestly tt was the fers time i played with a tamagotchi.. wasn't too interested when the tamagotchi fad was abt.. waste of $$$ marr.. haha.. anw it was cuute.. i played with it to mk it happier (:.. and she (hongz imaginatively named her ah girl) can roll about! omg. ahaaha.. sh dian-ed a whole list of jj songs then refused to sing as usual.. =P but yepp.. jj's really cuute! whaha.. the mvs larhhs. lol. ltr on i also dian-ed a list of 56 songs.. (;.. we also sung some oldd songs and hzgg songs.. and twds the end we dian-ed some dumb songs like happy birthday, newyr songs, and some er2 ges and some weird disco thingy. lol.. think we were mad. lol. but it was FUN! hehe.. 2-7pm for $10, 2 drinks and free tidbits (provided by heng!).. worthed it eh? =D.. i lurve ya'alllllllllllll! great to gather altog again. wheee. we shld meet up for sakae nxt time roundd..

reached hm and fan nao-ed abt pw.. pw sucks larhhs. i hate it!!

monday

had the pe elective- inline skatg.. hahaa.. honestly had been lookg quite fwd to it.. but i realized i preferred standing on the floor with my both feet firmly on the grnd.. =P nvm okkay.. this coming hols i shall go eastcoast train with vann! hahaa.. we muz jiayou! loll.. and muz become proOOooOOOoOOooooOoo! heheh..

...

sighhz..

today's pw presentatn sucked.. it was like.. so screwed. ohhman. how can i stop feelg the panic risg up within mE when i stand in frnt of the cls to present???? hrmmmmms. c'mon. it's jus a 5 min thing. it's nth scary. sigh. screwed up the answerg of qns as well. qns wasn't too difficult but i jumbled up and beat arnd the bush before arrivg at the ans. =.=". pissed with myself. sian. hate pw. and i think mstan hates us. haha. okay nt hate, but mabbe................ dun really like us too much? whtever.

shooooooot us all u all like lor.

jus keeeeeeeeeeep shooting.

yepyep. i love pw.

haii. being bitchy but i want to be unreeasonable and contradictg. being criticised now is good so we can mk improvements for the actual op but sometimes it really sucks cos you put in so much darned effort and slpless nights for it, but everything screws up and slams back at your face.

nvm. TJ075. we can do it.

Project S.P.A ROCKS alr?

=)

at least i can slp earlier tonight.

and did a nice floorplan. am satisfied. shall go enlarge it tmr. then paste on nice new cardboard to hold it up.

on thursday, we will mk it the best presentatn EVER.

to HELL with pw. mks me pms-y on any day of any mth and strains the r/s of ppl within the grp. haha.

[#132]

ohmaann. haha.. "F: 0-33". it's the best, most wonderful sentence i've heard for the day. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! and the nicest sentence on the whiteboard was-- "O: 33+" wheeyarrhhs.

i maybe hopeless but the stones, rocks, pebbles are finally off my chest. it mayn't be a big deal to most ppl but i am promoting!! i AM gg to get PROMOTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! don't care if i have to see the P cos it's a scrap thru.. but yesssh. i am relieved. was so darned worried. yeaa. different ppl gt different results and hence will have different expectations. felt a little hurt today.. ahh nvmm. i don't need to be appreciated all the time anyhow. i forget easily as well. which is a good thing :). (altho stupid. but still btr for health(;. )

sooooo. it's time to reflect! these hols will be da holiday to mugg! i've got to pia like siao.. i do want to improve for nxt yr's MCT.. and show my mummy, my siblings i know what went wrong, and am gg to do sth abt it.. and finally i have gt to drill this to my head- in jc, yrs pass along very fast.. a yr's almost ending.. and it seems just ytd when i'm still honeymoong in ny.. (:.

jj's first CD is very nice! =) listening now.. sometimes i just feel so inferior.. ppl are talking abt S papers.. talkg abt keeping 4 subjs.. wellllls.. i can't join in.. ><".. but also.. as i said.. diff ppl gt diff results and hence have diff expectations.. it's nt sth within my control now cos it's all a fact now.. but i can do sth abt it nxt yr.. yarr. haii.. but anyway, congrats to all my friends who promoted safely! =D and also congrats to all those who did well! to those who didn't perform as well as they wished to.. jiayou on alr? don't give upp.. so long you promote safely, muz cont to chiong and jiayou cos what matters in the end is still the "A"s!!! muz fight on and jia bei nu li! haha.. =). arrrrhhhh. i have to gt used to it. somehow. anyway i don't regret the things i do, including deciding to do 3 A lvl subjs.. altho the thought of applying for scholarships is alluring, i know i'm nt really actually up to it anw.. will be pointless to do badly for 4 subjs.. (am already doing badly for 3 subjs. =.=") and in the end nt tkg any S papers.. or tkg any S papers tt wont earn distinctions.. so i'd btr concentrate on my 3 subjs and gp and ba ta men gao hao! coming to jc has made me realize one impt thing: you really need to put in HARD work. ahaha. took me this long to realize this simple fact. i'm dense anw.

shall slp early tonight.. and figure out how to do the pw floorplan! gonna be cool! woohoots. and gotta amend script.. lengthen it.. practice as well.. practice those words i tend to trip over or just mumble over.. whoa.. didn't know i had this problem of my wrds dyg away at the end of my sentences. nvmm. praacctice! and still nervous abt any qns tt may come my wayyyy. hehe. wellls. pw does suck. x).

and there's still cross-stitch! ahh shit i'm such an idiot i can't even do cross-stitches well. gonna pick all the strings out again and redo again. sighhz.

and i still lurve the tigger and eeyore softtoys at bedok ntuc! lol. they're still there.. sitting on the shelf. aww. went shoppg there to look at prices of stuff for tmr's bbq and to buy the chicken wings for ky to marinate..

shall go off now then... jaaaa ne!

there are still stuff to look fwd to! saturday and sunday. =).

[#131]

haha.. this is a dumb thing.. dont wish to cont it but hmm here's the "topic"-- Your Top 5 Quirks. (Not in order of merit.)

music: i lurve music and feel absolutely comfortable when surrounded by those notes. (: nt jus pop but also classical music~ ^^,

charmed: charmed by something... charming?

movies: ohh i enjoy touchg sad movies tt mk my tears roll or comedies tt mk my sides ache, but nt so for horror movies tt my insides cringe and activates my fear genes..

energy: i like 5566. (wahas)

ohh actually it's only 4!

[#130]

hate it when tears fall. for results. it's dumb. it's weak. i feel stupid. but the tears just came. was it the mcq or tt darned essay? i dunno. it's really idiotic cos i knew i won't do well.. tt kinda sinkg and "this time i will really flunk cos i screwed up" feelg aft realizing one essay was screwed and the mcqs were badly done.. then i met mswong and aft what she said.. i knew i wldnt do well.. but there was just this one small tiny hope tt things wont go too wrong.. but when realization hits.. arrh. whatever. a known fact is tt (mug+effort = satisfyg results) is not an equation that stands all the time. but yc... you must nt lose hope.. you must jiayou during the hols.. no use thinkg abt all the what-ifs and if-onlys and shldn't-haves.. lep was disappointing as well.. wellls. what can i say? mswong.. pls be nice to me and help me.. sighh. and yaa thnks vann and meiq for consoling me.. :)

i see myself chging.. frm sec sch days to jc days.. the confidence rubbed off.. the enthusiasm and earnest rubbed off.. the happiness rubbed off.. the carefreeness rubbed off.. the bubblyness rubbed off.. the warmth rubbed off.. the niceness rubbed off.. the optimisticness rubbed off.. don't like these chges.. but they are happening to me.. what can i do? days will still gt by.. being crushed a few times doesn't mean a thing. thinkg too much hurts.. it's idiotic but i want to hold on the belief that things will get better, a little bit of warmth will be able to chase the coldness away somehow, i will be able to stop those chges. somehow. somehow. maybe today is just a depressing rainy night.

there are still things i've gt to cherish.. yepps. thnks yun.. thnks sh.. :) and thnks mummy..

mmmmm.

shall look fwd to the scg bbq on sat.. yay! the last bbq i had was with nyccs, somewhere in march.. tt bbq was a reallllllly nice one =D.. i lurve marshmallooooooooows!!! hahaha. i will be helpg in buying food again! yeaaaman. cos it's at pasir ris park. i lurve pasir ris park! =). we will have fun yar? (;

eyes drooping le.. think i'll go to lala land again tmr.. but luckily only one lect- econs.. gg thru essay qn 2. oh damn. it's tt stupididioticdarnedfreakishdumb mian bao qns. heh. and we will have to run 2.2km lucky heiights there during mass pe.. and i'll have 3 bldy periods to rot and after which there will be a maths tutorial which i dunno what mrwong will do? then stupid pw. haii cant go hc open hse cos of pw. nvm. sunday! sunday can go k at hougang cc.. and all 7 will turn up.:)~

liang jing ru's ke xi bu shi ni is a verrry sad song. but i like it. :).

kay now i need slp.

[#129]

have so much to saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. but my mind's blocked. clogged.

ahh.

reminds me of our proj.

i need our room!

i wanna visit it.

to clear my thoughts.

wahhas. :p

[#128]

lala. pw ppt looks nicer now.. more pics. hehe. but some slides are still plain.. but i cant be bothered. hai. i shld gt some high tech stuff like a thumbdrive. my kor's off to reservice if nt i can ask him for blank cds or borrow his thumbdrive.. his rm is in SUCH A MESS i dunno where's what.. dun want to rummage thru his stuff either.. hai. sending ly e file slowly now.. my comp is such a slow pOKE. HUMPH. shan't scold my poor dear comp. *patpat* good comp. nice comp. (: and thnks ly for tahan-g my just-lagging-by-a-little-bit connectn..

haha.. gonna receive the darned lep paper section by section every single day. so sickening. i wish they cld just give it all at once. and on wed will gt gp and econs. math was........ i dunno if it will scrape thru an ao pass.. praying.. but. ECONS. =(. and was totally... by chaguan. hai. but it's really useless to groan over results now.. but your heart will just plummet down.. somehow. sigh.

went to sing at e ktv at katong shoppg centre with ky, vann, yinghui, bingrong, boonhan and weijie today.. chiagu joined us ltr.. it WAS cheap! haha.. sang 2.5++hours for $4.50 only. but the ppl in the adjacent room were smokg and the smoke travelled into our room and it sucked. haha. i cannot stand cigarette smoke. and the smokey smell gt into my uniform and bag. yuk. brought the smokey smell hm... hehe.. but still, it was really shuang singing (;. haven't sung for a long time.. gg this sunday again with yun they all.. yaay man, this time all 7 will turn up :). hahaz.. we sung some real obiang songs.. and i lurve zhufu. but it was fun singing (: thnks ppl for the nice ji xing outing and aww thnks vann for zhong-g you instead of se. =P

i lurve soft toys. dunno why. but think i'm the only person i know who are seriously obsessed with soft toys. haha. lala. i can gt very high just lookg at the soft toys displayed in those shops.. like pooh, TIGGER, eeyore, bears and such.. ..

my eyes are closingg................ still sendg ppt.................. haven't memorize scrippppppppppt........... will do a baaaaaad job tmr............ do i care????????????? not exactly. whee. yahaha. hehe.

transfer complete. (:

niteeee.

[#127]

muahahhah! am proud of myself. 3000words for WR!!!! aint i SMARRRRRT? hahaha..

lalala~

shenhua is a nice movie! i think qinshihuang is soo smart. he lived in soo many billions of yrs ago yet he knows so much abt meteorites. hmmm. i nvr knew tt meteorites mk things float if light is shone upon the objects.. hehe cool~ and the korean princess was really pretty.. ending was rather sad tho.. haha.. but my eyes were dry! not THAT sad la. and too cold. but enjoyed the show.. the scenery.. woww.. and i saw the harrypotter trailer!!! aaAarHHh! i think i gonna chg bck to tt hp skin soon. :p. november!! i'm waiting for you to comE!

nxt thursday!!! *shivers*

[#126]

hey.

it's over.

shld i smile?

i think so. altho i'm like utterly dead for econs. what the crap? PC and MC. how the HELL cld i have mixed them up? totally screwed up e econs paper. it sucks. it's really sickening. i had had a bad feelg abt it.. imagine not being able to fall aslp the night before. sigh. but i'm not gg to think abt it. what's the use of cryg over spilt milk. when i told ly, really on the verge of tears. sighh. hate puttg on strong fronts.. cant say how glad i was to see meet ly as i walked out of the sch. and glad i met up with eve and yt. ((: thnks gurls. lurve ya all so much *muakz*

watched movie with yt, eve and yt's friend.. the movie was nice.. andy lau's tong meng qi yuan!! awww. i cried. =,=" and got dug at by yt and eve. haha.. had mcflurry icecream at mac.. talked somemore fei hua.. lamed here and there.. hmm. got a new name. ><" emmz. but haii. really missed being with those 2. haiyo. getting emotional. TSK. =P

and arhh the movie was nice! nice! nice! ahah! think abt the prospects of watchg shen hua tmr with yun they all i feel even happier! ((: i lurve my friends!!!! *hugz* lol. and hmmm. nice idea huh choccy.. open shop sell bread, cakes and cookies. yum. =)

it's time for neoprints!!! it's time for movies!!! it's time for good meals!! *actually did have good meals while studyg lehz.. with ky, sher and vann.. loll.. the swensens'! -drools-* waaha. think i'll only have this week to enjoy anyhow. but it gonna suck with PW! lol.

okiiie. shall watch the 9pm show. (:

[#125]

i lurve angela's fu huo jie. such a melancholy tune. i lurve it.

sometimes somethings really suck.

but i've gt to survive.

it will be stupid to be defeated mentally.

especially by something that is really nth but an empty shell.

look upon the positive points.

look at the sun that is setting right now.. altho it's abt to sink down soon into e sea (or whatever), it's still shining brightly. and the following morning, it will rise again. hmm.

jiayou. jiayou. jiayou.

hoping for the best may be a stupid thing to do when all it does is to break your heart into pieces. but i still gonna hope.

i am a stupid girl, after all.

(and a lousy friend)

((:.

seriously. i don't want to stay in tj for an extra year.

-st0ne-

[ Journey ] - Angela Chang

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe

When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on chivalry
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you, to you

[#124]

tmr's the first paper of promos... gp paper.. 3.5 hours.. sighhz.. hope tt there will be a nice essay topic just for me to write.. x). haha. i don't really have any concrete examples for any exact topic... like gender.. poverty.. sports or whatever.. just hope i can scrape thru like my mock. haha. my mock was a mess. but the mark wasn't too terrible. let's see.. hope i can finish my compre tmr and nt fall aslp! haah.. always fall aslp.. jct lidat. mock also. hmph. ttx why i gonna slp early tonight! yeeaa!!

lalalaa.. can't say i've completed much over the past few days... not really getting stressed but i am really fedup. what am i studying for? actually i don't know. just trying to get it over and done with. i'm not studying for the sake of goodresults for myself. just studying cos... i have to. it's a must. i cannot not study. after all. i DO want to promote.

but maths makes me damn fedup... cannot progress much.. still have trig.. and diff.. and i still haven't gao hao my vectors!!!!!!!!! jue lie with them le. sigh. sometimes i wonder is it becos i'm dense or what.. but somehow or rather.. i just can't click it with maths. some stuff i can think and think and think and zhuan ALL the niu jiao jians.. and nvr think of a smart solution out of stuff. xian mu all those ppl with a little more tian fen with maths.. i have no yuan fen with maths. this morning de curve qns.. then the functns qns i asked yt again.. so darned STUPID de lor.. but i just cldnt see it. damn. i'm just gg to die at the maths paper la.. when i'm not panicking i'm stupid enough la. when i panick and blank out it's worse.

i'm so gg to hate this but during the hols i will really sort out those maths-y stuff. i muz sort them out. if not i will go on as clueless as ever nxt yr and things will be bad. hai.

i TOK so much but i seldom go abt doing. but nxt yr i will do my tuts on time!! i swear. haii.

kay baa... time to go flip thru some gp related stuff.. get myself in the mood. haha. eww AQ! haaa. alright. i muz haf AQ- adversity quotient. lala.

ja ne.

[#123]

mind's in a blank.

think blogger's getting more and more unsafe..

hmmmm.

sigh.