[#122]

bought stickers!!! spongebob!! i didnt know there were spongebob stickers!! hahaz.. actually i prefer patrick.. but there were no stickers with patrick as main character. loll.. bought 5 for $1.. so cuute! so i wrote 2 postcards and used the stickers happily. gave my nephew one of the 5 sets. :).

ohhh.. yaa. i shld get a boyfriend. okay!! tada! i've got myself one--let me introduce him!! he's called mr integration!!! i loooooooooooooooove him like maad. okkay. once i'm done with him, i will get boyfriends 2,3,4,5,6-- namely mr functions, mr curvesketchg, mr differentiatn, mr vectors and mr ECONS!!!

bought a fox shirt for kor for his bdae. gt a palm tree de. haha. hope he likes it. he'd btr. it was on offer!! $19 only. waaahahas. =P. bought a yellow winnie the pooh shirt! waha! it's more ex than kor's prez. by $1. cos it's a disney trademrk la. hahax.. i lurve the plastic bag. so cute. hmmm. i lurve pooh!

yaaay. kor ordered ice cream cake for his bdae. ltr we're gg to eat it. YUM. swensen's ice cream caake!!!!!!!!!

okayy.. labour labour labour labourr!! i muz finish labour today. which is highly impossible. but i will try my best.

hmmm. is the pe elective thingy tmr? inline skating! i think im gonna mk a fool of myself but it doesnt matter la. hahaz.. my scgppl mar.. maybe we can be stupid tog. but hen nan jiang.. i think my coordination skills abit lan4. heez..

BAH!! realized i have to help design the ppt nicely ltr.. muz i do it today??? i wanna finish labour!!! and those integratn tuts!!! im still sTUCK!!

shall gt off the comp den. :).

ohh.. one sad thing-- hong yi shou ji has ended! sighhz.

[#121]

121. 11 x 12 = 121.

mmmmhrmmz.

drowning myself in 56's voices. (:. reeeeeeeeeeeeenfu! i think i havent gone really crazy over him for a loong time. where's my flower eatg self? *searches high and low* sighz.

haha.. is everybody getting more and more stressed nowadays? i don't feel the need to gt stressed le.. so few days left. there's nt enough time for you to panick and let your heart grow colder with fear, and your hands more clammy with sweat and dread... it's just mugging and mugging and mugging until the promos tide over eventually. sigh. i will be my usual self. trying hard to mug but still nt half as muggerish as the regular full-time muggers. come to think of it. i will try to strive to become such a person nxt yr. (:. i shall be consistent and guai and not fall aslp during lects. hahaz..

sitting at the bck of the lt mks you more awake somehow? but it's extremely distracting. loll. what was i doing for the whole lect? nt really absorbing or concentratg.. just happily ppl watchg.. haha.. sick me stared a bit at my ou xiang. lol.

didn't bring my hp today.. felt abit insecure but hmmm still quite alright. ky didn't come sch.. she gt itchy, non-contagious rashes! haha.. poor thing.. i hate itchy rashes! i cant bear itchiness.. i will just keep scratchg and scratchg. been watchg news lately.. most of the time will have parts abt the dengue fever that's hot in town.. will show those mosquitoes and i will start to itch all over. hehe..

aww. whatever weight i lost whilst i was sick came bck. haha.. :p. whatever. i will cont to eat what i like. (:. and shall exercise diligently aft promos. and nononono.. don't wanna fall sick again..

i muz mk use of my wkends well this time round! i need to do econs and maths. maths maths maths MATHS. mainly maths. lol. i'm going to grow so damnit sick of maths but yes. i will not grumble. i willl NOT whine. i will nnnnooooooot regret.

went hm with sher, vann and mr vegetable ytd. it was quite a fun walk bck. sher and i tried all means and ways to stay behind. hahaahh.. we are kaypohs! felt compelled to call mr vegetable by his veg name when vann introed us. ahaha. x).

soo.. shld i go tiong bahru plaza tmr to see junyang they all????????? hahaha. actually come to think of it.. i shldn't!!! tiong bahru is SO far AWAY. hahaa.. altho i have a plan to rush there right away aft fts. but fts ends arnd 12nn. reach there abt 1230pm ba.. then lunch at the mac there le.. let's say 1pm start wrk. 3pm will go see those superstar peeps le! do you think i will still gt down to wrk aft watchg them? ahaha.. altho i wanna see junyang!!!! weicong too!!! hehe.. but i bet it will be crammed with ppl and i wont gt a very clear view of them.. why aren't they coming down to white sands? or tm? cs? sigh.

if i don't go.. then aft fts, where can i go to mug? *thinks* not home.. afternoon is unbearably hot. airport? gt meiyun to join me so i can kup her tuts? *glints evilly* see. so jian. hahax.. quite a good idea.. maybe i will reach at arnd 1245pm.. then settle down, eat, start wrk at 1.30pm.. mug till 6 then go hm. hmm. sounds like a btr idea.. reach hm, bathe, eat, hongyishouji! hahaah. then shediao and whee. saturday is goooooone. yaa.. i shld cont to mug till 1plus ba.

okie.. the mugging idea sounds btr than the tiongbahru idea. haiiIIIIii.

nahh.

i muz keep smiling and feeling positive.

and gt more knowledgable in econs. so tt i can STOP feeling stressed everytime aft econs tut. hai. the darned csq gt a stupid mrk AGAIN. *sniff* i put in effort!! i handed on time! :(.

haha.. i loooooove econs! i loooooooove maths!! (i cant believe im saying this.. heeeellppp!)

sayooonara then.. it's 8pm le..

[#120]

didnt go to sch for these 2 days.. ytd and today.. hmmz. realized it's not much fun being stuck at hm either. at least when im in sch i gt to really do some things.. i wont be borrred. had fever.. was abit feverish still so mummy told me to stay at hm for another day.. i have 2 days MC anyhow! heheh.. :p. anw.. i won't curse myself to fall sick nxt time.. haha.. it's awful to be sick.. yaya.. obvious. but these few weeks or mths, i've been constantly hoping i will fall sick so tt i need nt go to sch.. haah.. dreadg e dreary sch mar.. but yaa.. it's not fun being hot and bothered and not being able to slp.. it's not fun having a headache banging your head flat.. it's not fun feeling dizzy and wanting to die.. hahax.. a bit worried tt i may tio dengue fever but choooy. looking out for red spots noww.. erghh. let's pray my fever wont come bck..

yepp.. maybe it's been a long time since i fell sick.. unless you count the diarrhoea i had somewhere last mth (i think). haha.. i rmb tt diarrhoea was terrible cos i kept rushing in and out of the toilet :p but recovered within a day i think.. hehe.. so i've forgotten how sickening a fever can gt.. mmm. but yepp. frm now till last day of promos i muz take care of myself.. my brains are already not in the best condition le.. so i muz not let any bugs deteriorate them further x).

eeeeyer. the gp essay is so darned difficult to write.. what kind of qns are those?? i can't even choose a proper qns. and as for econs drq, i'm still as clueless as ever. still gt all those integratn tuts to clear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *bangs head on the wall* these 2 days at hm did nth much.. and cldnt really slp much cos i cldnt fall aslp! ><~ all the headaches' fault. tmr will be a packed day of lects. hope e aircon wont b too cold tmr :).

wonder what other hw i've lei ji-ed today? and yinghui just told me the best news ever-- we've gt op nxt wk!!!!! only consolatn is tt my grp is the last grp. haiiii. WTH. i really hate pw. it's so damnnit sickening. i only have this amount of time left to prepare darned promos and there's still pw to be done. sighhz.. what to do? it's my problem.

ermz. i gt d/ced. i continued to type. and stupid me clicked 'publish post' when i haven't reconnected. ehh.. i have a good memory.. so i have forgotten what i'd typed at the ltr part, where the "recover post" thingy didn't save..

watched shamanking dvd disc1 today! it somehow chased away some bit of my headache. i think i just have to face it tt headaches will haunt my head for the nxt few days ba.. i want to slp and slp to recover more quickly but i cant fall aslp.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *grumbles*

one positive thing is that i missed monday! a loooong day!

sh fell sick too. hee.. she said muz be the dhs dinner's fault. i told her she xiang tai duo le. only 2 of us out of so many other ppl who turned up la. *scratches chin*

i need to do the essay and drq cos gt gp and econ tutorials tmr.. eeyer.

4L in frnt of dental bus.. bus which hsed our horrrors =Pp 

mid-autumnfest celebratns'o5 [4L at vball court] ((: 

[#119]

happy mid-autumn festival!!!

had a looong day ytd.. reached sch arnd 9+.. started reading bankg notes.. head bursting.. then fts frm 10+ to 12+.. my tutee was rather unresponsive as usual.. gt so bored teachg sometimes.. and i think im a useless tutor. lol. gave him a set of spelling wrds.. hope he rmbs to study and so i can give him a test nxt week. aarh. forgot to ask when his exams come. =.=". i know when my exams are comg. 2 weeks time. =S.

struggled on w bankg notes till arnd 1pm.. gt chased outta sch.. then went to tanah merah station to wait for jun.. took train to and fro frm changi airport to tanah merah. met jun up arnd 2.. we went to bugis (again).. but it was nice.. catching up and everything ((:. we walked abt.. i had lunch.. and we went to the bugis village or izzit street? haha.. im clueless.. but nvm.. most impt thing is being comfortable. hehe.. jun told me sth tt yit said tt i really agree as well.. you know you've found a good friend when you feel comfortable enough to go out with her/him alone.. yepps.. very true.. it doesn't count when it's one whole big group.. anw.. we had fruits, then proceeded to dhs.. we were rather early i guess.. hehe.. abt 4+.. actually saw weijie on 158 bus.. was shocked, but waved to him anw.. but guess what, he stared at me blankly. whatever. i was just made of glass at that point of time ba. but felt pissed still. at myself. why the hell did i wave? lol. and i was just complaining abt him to jun. loll. ><~

registered at the foyer, gt this nice set of phonecards.. haha.. we saw tingg, meiyun, rachel, yelin, jingyi, dixuan, wesley, jieren, alvin.. ly came ltr.. and peien too.. haha.. quite few actually.. but nvm.. saw the dental bus and took photos excitedly with it.. ohh those fond memories we had in there. heh. took photos outside e once-4L-now-1J/K-clsrm.. decided to pon the principal talk in e audi and went to the vball court there.. took some more photos.. they went to play vball but me ly jun yt sat at the steps there, talktalk and took photos.. peien wesley jieren dx played cards. they were short of players for bridge cos dx doesnt know.. ly joined and i helped her.. was stupid as usual. ahahas.. and to think i've forgotten how to play..but refreshed my memory. :p. still dunnno how to call for partner.. so i'll nvr win e bid. =P ltr on the buffet started! the canteen was already full.. choped a place and went to tk food.. talked over the food.. finally gave choccy her prez! saw yun sh gh just heng they all and waveEeeDdd~ it was really nice and heartwarming~ old dunmanians came back for this alumni gathering.. some old students were really quite old le.. haha.. =). they shld have this sorta gathering every yr. hehe.. huiqi came ltr too :).. also went to tk photos w cs ppl and seniors..

went hm with yun the all.. yt was with us too.. cos we had to gt hm earlier.. 4L peepz wanted to have drinks at siglap there.. we went nuts on the way frm dhs to 30 bus stop.. dunno what we were doing but we were behaving like a bunch of ppl high on alcohol. =P. nvr been so crazzy since las yr. heheh. continued to feng till 30 came.. sorree yt i pao qi-ed u when 30 came. #'_'#. didnt stop behaving madly on the bus.. poked fun at sh.. then she went to isolate herself.. ahaha. just got off.. then we went to sit down.. behaved abit more calmly and normally then.. 30 surpassed itself with the speed.. only arnd 20mins de bus ride. whooa. haha.. muz be becos few ppl alighted and boarded the bus. hmmm.

reached hm at arnd 10+.. watched she diao.. actually huangrong isn't really pretty in the show.. she's sposed to be real pretty.. mu nianci was really pretty.. yangkang was disgusting.. hahaaa.. i don't like zhou jie!! i prefer another version of she diao starring huang ri hua (guojing) and zhu ying (huangrong).. the cast was nicer. bleah. but i still watch. cos it's nice rmbg the details of the story itself as you watch. hehe. waa. cldnt stand it as i watch yangkang sweet talk mu nianci. eww. haha.. baddie. aww. missed hong yi shou ji! it must have been real jing cai. heh. deji biao bao leh!

tirrred day. altho i did nth much but have fun. hahaah.. i shld be guilty right. sighhz. i'm such a pig. where's the mugger spirit? i think it's cos i can't find a mugging partner. all sorts of excuses!!!!!!!!!!! hai. who wants to be my mugging partner? :P

staring at econs unit7 DRQ.

...

*sniff* i really dunno how to do. lost the battle w bankg notes. maybe i shld read the previous LN all over again. and there's still math integration tuts to clear. haiiii. ohhyeahh thnks lots tingg for your stack of tuts. =).

hao laa.. 2 weeks left. yc. jia you.

[#118]

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmz.

it's the end of the week again!!! arhhhhhhhhghh.. i'm so worrried.. and i'm SICK of being worried. sighhz. as i expected i didnt really follow my schedule.. basically jus tried my best to study for those tests.. econ, guwen and xiaoshuo. don't really care abt the results. i know they wont be good.

i really need sleep!! i'm lurving my bed more and more.. warm and cosy. (: hehe.. dunno why but i'm so tired and lazy everyday. hahaax.. i muz keep to my motivation.. sighhz. no matter what means and ways.. i muz promote yar? haha.. =)

yaayy.. tmr gg bck dhs for midautumn fest.. (: hehe.. wonder what the dinner will be like.. hahax.. hope more ppl turn up!!!

be bckk sooooooooon. or prob tmr.... jaaa ne!!

[#117]

*croaks* hehe.. voice is cracking.. haha.. zi zuo zi shou.. throat not fully recovered but i ate some mooncake.. irresistible tai li yue bing!! loll.. and taadaa.. cough comes along and voice cracks.. mmmm. nvm.. this will not curb me frm singing out loud to my media library... ~qing ni xiang xin wo.. ai ni shi zhen de~~ feng qi yun yong.. chao lai chao luo.. ren hai zhOng de woOo~ hui yi bu hui pin qiong, qing ni xiang xin wO!! haii. sad lehhz. one of the stupid discmans spoilt my pinguan's cd.. track1 is like almost gone la. ARGH. qi si wo le. i like tt song lorr. haii. hope the other songs wont be affected.. on track3 now.. hai.

inspiring piece of news: 3weeks left to promos! around 22days..

my econs file is so darned THICKK! haha.. i can't imagine lugging it arnd lor.. hai. think lep n math will be even worse.. but i haven't finished packing *can you believe how last min i aM?*.. yaa..

gonna draw up a nice packed schedule for myself ltr.. i must pass my promos. i must not stay in tj for longer than 2 yrs, frm 2oo5-2oo6.. it will be too much to bear.. an extra full yr in tj. yuk.. hmmm. yes.. this is my motivation. it's really very late for me to start chionging but still.... it's useless to sigh and heave about the lost time.

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my impression of jc life.. strange to see how it had chged over the past few mths.. while i was still in dhs, i just thought tt jc life will be a simple continuation.. hmm.. will meet diff pple and get to know diff pple and form a new circle of friends.. tho i will lose some of my sec sch friends.. had this simple belief tt true friends will stick tog. just before stepping into ny, was dreading it like hell and half-worried to death. cos i was the only person frm my gang of dhs friends gg there.. but it turned out to be a fresh experience.. to be an enjoyable 3mths that i wished will nvr ever end.. jc life was good. at jae admission.. actually chged jcs.. my 2 weak reasons of distance and parents. what was the real reason behind?? i guess cos 05A5 was gg to separate aft all.. some chg schs, some chg combi, chg stream.. what's left for me to stay? altho i nvr ever despised ny.. tj did seemed like a more promising choice.. and i didn't want to be burdened by the fact tt i had to do really extra well if i stayed in ny, to prove to my parents.. there.. my renowned laziness. thought prob tj's mugger style will just push me somehow and i won't end up too bad for A lvls.. yea.. entered tj.. till now still don't have any real feelgs for it.. maybe my initial attitude was already a aloof one.. tt's why.. no excuses abt being a 2nd intaker.. prob tj wasn't really the dream jc for mE.. pple's way of thinkg chg over time.. still glad tt i went ny for my first 3 mths. (:.

pple i've met in tj.. mmm.. i just feel that deep inside.. friendships you forge in jc are still surface-type.. nobody really truly cares.. it's just a kind of interdependent relationship ba.. just for accompanying purposes.. aft you reach hm.. then it's just bye. there's no mutual warmth.. just. ya. spending time tog.. enjoying each other's company.. using one another.. ehh. but this is just my opinion la.. hahax. i've known ppl who found their best friends in jc as well.. so.. yaa.. mabbe i've just yet found this one person who can unds me and yaa.. aiya whatever. not like i'm deprived or what.. i still have my friends arnd me who truly care abt me and love me, like i love them! (: but to me.. just hold this impression tt jc friends are just jc friends..

and mmm.. the definition of true friends isn't so simple aft all.. too many factors contribute in a slowly disappearing friendship.. deep down i'd always known that our distance will grow aft we chg schs.. but. it's sad when it really happens. maybe our mindsets have always been different.. but it didn't seem like that.. it hadn't been like that.. but we just outgrew each other? maybe you nvr really cared. but it doesn't seem fair to put it this way.. maybe it was nvr in your priority.. maybe we just hold different opinions twds friendship. but i've lost the ability to keep up a convo with you..

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PROMOS!

ahaha..

must keep reminding myself.. like it's the most exciting thing in the world.

wheeee.

:).

x).

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{chunZz}

[#116]

i didn't watchhh!!!! my stupid brother!!!!!!!!!!! i'm gonna scold him today when he gets home!!! he refused to come hm to pei me watch [ the tale of two sisters ]!!! see la.. i had to miss it.. i didn't dare to watch it alone.. thought for a loong loooong time.. decided i need to sleep! cos aft watchg tt horror movie alone, i'll be scared to death and prob nt be able to sleep and will nt be able to wake up today for the pw meetg at sher's hse.. sighhz. but it will be really horrendous to watch it alone.. my living room is rather big.. and the crickcrick sound lizards make will be darned creepy.. plus the fact sometimes bombom sounds will travel frm the 11th floor apartment directly above mine.. eyyer.. and the swishing sound of water coming down the water pipes in my bedrm toilet. errrgh! hahax.. all these scary factors.. and plus the fact i will have to walk tt dark corridor leading frm living rm to my bedroom after the scary movie.. think really CMI liao la. and just watching the advert made me cringe.. so ya. hahax.. i admit i'm a dan xiao kia.. so too bad. without my kor's company i didn't dare to watch. STUPID BROTHER!! hahaax.. he told me not to ask him to watch scary stuff. this big brother of mine. who had gone to NS. who is half wrkg half studying now. who has a gf. TSK. who is 182cm tall. i bet if his dr tan had asked him to watch the show with him, he'll def nod his head off.. grrr.

hahax.. one day i will still watch e show okay.. i'm glad i didn't watch alone actually.. cos sh said she was scared to death again (ytd was the 3rd or 4th time she watch tt show) and cldnt slp.. altho her bro accompanied her.. but her bro is tt kind.. ya. ahaha.. one yr older.. so yealor.. hmph.. yea.. so i made the right chooice. nxt time i'll watch with a big grp of ppl. like [ the maid ].

anw yepp.. so did pw at sher's hse.. sher's hse is sooooo sher. haha.. yinghui's hse also very yinghui. i wonder if my hse is like mE? hahax.. i'm still thinking about vann's cute lion. and yeaa.. sher's big pooh! nvm. i have my dogs and yepp cushiony cat =). lol.

dunno if to be angry or not angry.. to be pissed or not.. or to be sianed.. or to be just basically duhh-ed dao.. i dunno.. but i still find him very irresponsible!!!!!!!! he always have some excuses to substantiate his absence.. but i think he has done it too many times. tired of it le.. as a pw mate.. i think he has failed in almost every aspect. kay.. maybe i'm harsh.. but honestly. whateverrr. he's not worth it.. shldn't lose 60secs of happiness on this kinda anger directed twds his stupid behaviour.

arhhhhh. watching hong yi shou ji now... ahhhh!!!! deji!!!!! he looks SOOOO hurt! haii. xiaolan was just so not tactly lor.. the way she rejected him. haiii. haha... e actor who acted as deji not bad ma.. his eyes just sort of welled up in tears almost immediately. loll. my heart goes out to him. sigh. loll.. x). but nvm! i cant wait for him and cailin to gt tog! =P. haha.. *roooooooollls my eyes* hhaa.. the way guys cheer guys up. so duh. hahax..

econs tys econs tys econs tys ECONS TYS.

hmmm.

you gt the picture.

loll..

yea. gotta do like at least 4 units more.. sighhz.. gambette!!

ja ne then!!!

[#115]

cooooooool. so bluee. ((:.

tada.. my blog looks so friendly now.. inviting you to read it. (;. haha.. nice wide broad.. wrds relatively big. not small.. font colour mks it easy to read agnst the dark bg as well. whooa. altho i miss the previous one.. which was really nice.. but tt was way too narrow ba.. haha.. lalala~

i'm actually gg to watch a tale of two sisters ltr on tv!! omg. 11.30pm. how creeeepy can the time BEEE? hahax..

ohmannn. i hate blocked up noses.. it sucks. SERIOUSLY. haii.

what have i donee??

a whole day of guilt once more.

[#114]

ahahahx.. my nose is leaking again!!!!!!! siann. tho sore throat is much btrr.. mmmmrrmx..

went bck dhs see dhscs dazu ytd.. didn't want to go at first.. in the end i dunno why i gt persuaded there.. felt abit guilty cos had arranged to go mug with meiyun and xiaoting.. but early in e morning i had cramps and a very sore throat so pangseh-ed them.. sorry gurls!! and i acutally went out and wasted a whole half day. arrhhhh. FULL of guilt. but before i went out i finally did something abt the gp stuff my sis told me to do.. yarr. i think i shld go do a compre and essay for dajie ltr.. if not really gu fu her lehhz. ARGH. wanna die when i think of maths..

met up with sh.. then tada!! surprisingly minyu was there too! hahax.. sh peng dao minyu ma.. yepp.. so we had lunch tog.. chatchat abit over lunch and on 30.. ahh! minyu told me ru guo de shi is a les song!!! lollll.. actually it's quite true if you look carefully at the lyrics... but it's like HMM. hahax.. hui bu hui shi xiang tai duo le? lol..

read thru those short stories i used to write.. hahaha.. was laughing at myself.. wellls. felt abit you zhi la.. but abit proud of myself too.. hmmz.. i haven't used my brain cells for a looong time nehhs. seems like 3/4s of them had died. maybe writing ff helps.. but i haven't touched them for a long time..

nice surprise in da morning when amanda talked to mE! my ASM! hahax.. this bubbly cheery caring errxin gurl... ahh.. memories of byg. =). tho there were those unhappy encounters.. the probs.. mummy's bu man.. but still.. those memories are dear to mE.. nxt yr's byg.. i will def go support.. but the sense of loss will definitely surface.. yepp.. i cld've stayed there.. and fen dou along with themm.. but i left. yaa. :(. nvm. those peepz, nyccs peepz, will def put up a grreeat show!!!!!!!!! =D u guys muz jiayouu!

the dazu games seemed really quite fun! hahax.. sh, jiahui and i self-entertained abit.. nice to see da juniors again!! probs abit qingchun.. yaa.. i think the juniors are facing enough stress.. instead of reproaching them about what they have not done.. shldn't we show them encouragement instead?? i think they wld end up feeling pissed aft tt talk ytd.. i didn't really speak up.. wells, firstly i don't think i have the zi ge la.. bi jing my experience isn't that broad.. i know about as much as the juniors do.. but i guess i'm more concerned abt how they feel.. and the most impt thing now is not to point fingers at who's wrong.. shld try to improve the standard rite.. try to solve the more ji shou prob.. and shldn't zhi zhuo on what cannot be done.. i mean.. it's really impossible to bring in drastic changes.. changes have to be done.. but by bit by bit.. taking too great a leap forward will only nong qiao fan zhuo.. just like maomaomao (as what our beloved mrs tan bee kee likes to say!! hee..) de great leap fwd and cultural rev.. they were great and noble ideas to chg china.. but it happened too fast.. it's impossible to get a huge number of people to keep up with the swift pace and rapid chges.. some things are just not within our control..

actually i feel a bit shi bai.. didn't dare to speak out.. i shld have i think. wish i'm stronger.. if xinhui or huijun were present. i'm quite sure they wld have spoken up.. provided they think the same way as i do? i dunno. i'm just used to being the bckgrnd? jiu zai hou mian.. jing jing de zuo zai na bian.. filll up the space jiu ok le. felt useless. yc!!! or mabbe i just don't wanna blow things up.. and felt inferior.. don't think i can rebut bck strongly either.. yaa.. rather than like qi nei hong in frnt of juniors. just let them say what they so strongly feel while i just sit there like an outsider. wanna tell the juniors to jiayou and give them moral support and all.. but i feel it's also not what they need. maybe not what they'll appreciate baa. haii. but really hope qingchun will be successful!!

juniors.. you guys muz show and prove your worth! jiayouu!! i'm sure actually each and every one of the seniors wanna see you peepz succeed and present a wonderful show!! =D who will want to see their own juniors putting up below expectations perf?? yaa.. no matter what the cheng guo is. i will still support you guys... qingchun bu guan zen yang. dou shi dhscs de production. wo yi ding hai hui qu zhi chi de. for one thing, i strongly disagree the fact tt i will nt go to the 06 qingchun perf if the perf is so called "lan4". i dont believe tt there is a lan perf. unless not one ounce of effort has been put in. yea. maybe blindly supporting but tts what i can do now.. since i have little practical experience tt can help them improve...

although a few months may not be able to work wonders.. i sincerely wish all the best for the juniors involved in dhscs qing chun xuan lv pdtion!! :D~ wo deng zhe kan ni men piao liang de yan chu!!

yi wang guo qu. i like the lyrics.. wo wang bu liao xin sui de guo qu.. ke shi wo bi xu mian dui wo zi ji.. wei lai sheng ming yong shen me lai dai ti.. kao zi ji qu zheng qu.. tried to search for e lyrics.. but i give up!!! will listen over and over to get the lyrics ba. lol.. x)~

jaa ne for now.

[#113]

just watched the jap show- [ be with you ]. ahhh. i leaked again. hehe. but it's really very very nice!!! i like the plot!!! i wanna read the original story! haha.. mmmm. zhe yang de ai qing.. zhen de hao wei da! (: ohh and the little boy was so cute! child actors and actresses nvr fail to capture the hearts of viewers.. they are just so natural! hahax.. i guess that's why they were chosen to play that character.. cos they can just really touch the hearts of viewers.. and yuko takeuchi is so pretty! ooh realize tt she's the actress playing takuya's "gf" in [pride]. lol.. mmm.

the love to shop.. izzit in every girl's genes? haha.. just wondering.. mmmmmmmmmmm.

mian qiang can say i started mugging.. but really very little. haii. esp when it's maths. arghh. sighhz. there's econs tmr! ooOopS! i forgot to do the essay plan for u7 qns2. hahaa.. and still must meet mstan. who will be available only aft 12nn. our lesson end at 1030am lehh!

sssafsijtiHOihahjOR.

[#112]

lalala~

lololo~

baadaaDOM~

hmmm! basically did pw for the whole day today. haiiz. but i guesss.. the cheng guo quite not bad la huhhhh.. hehe.. let's see ms tan's reaction.. but the whole day was really pw-ish la.. yepp.. yeaa.. thnks yinghui for ur hse!! hahaz.. think we really abit chao la.. paisehpaiseh.. x)~ 4 gurls can really create quite a ruckus la.. especially when we run a little desperate. yaa.. haii. hrmph..

las sat went to vann's hse and erm..... played monopoly? hehehe. played till i bankrupt again and again. sad la.. so long nvr play le.. hehe.. i like her lion!!!!!!! the face is SOO cute.. but it tuo mao la.. made me sneeze. hahaz.. but still so cute and biiiiiiiiiiG!!! :) haahz.. xingfu de vann!! heheh..

ahhhh.. the thought of promos mk my legs turn jellyloid (yc wrd). mmmm. but i'm still nt really doing muchh.. come to think of it. all my life. did i really pia-ed? but i think it's really time to really do wrrk!! jc ler.. summore the subjs are really different nehhs. last time altho the sciences were hiong.. but most of it is like.. u chiong means u can le.. just chiong those few days.. diedie stuff the bio chem stuff in.. can de.. phy is give-up sort. haha.. math is still can tk it when u do the tys. acutally i did pia for Os la huh. i did MATH TYS lorr.. then mep lehh. also possible to pia chu lai last min.. humanities i norm quite okok.. my langs just go for it.. hcl bei this and that la.. sighhz. now it's really really really cannot depend on last min stuff.. impossible.. look at econs.. bei also cannot get in2 head.. bei le sure lou diao alota stuff.. gt so much la!! dunno how come yuxiang's brain is SO damn power.. and must apply aloooot!! jc math i really cmi leh.. why so sad. haii. my last chance is lep. but hcl is really no longer so ez. hai. gp nehh.. is really have to kao ling chang biao xian.. and ermm yala.. newspaper articles really very impt.. i must be appreciative of my sis's efforts!! arghhhhhhhhhh!! aiyar wadevs.. say so muchh.. muz go do.. jiayou arhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! one week isn't very loNGG. :(.

sighhz.. shall gt off.. feeeling giddy.. shld i watch e jap movie "be with you" vcd toniggght? mmmmmmmmmmmm.

[#111]

111. nice number!

haii. i'm a water tap! watched hong yi shou ji.. felt touched and those tears rolled. aww. yepp. i will nvr be a nurse or doc.. don't think i can tk the deaths and all.. sighhz. though it's very true tt we shldn't mourn over deaths for too long, instead we shld look fwd and treasure the present, all the ppl that are still around, with us. ((: yeaa my family and dear friends, i lovve you all! =).

hahaha.. had fun playing w the photoshop gong nengs on the photos we took with kor in his grad gown. loll. so cOoOl!

tskk. yt reminded me of xiahan. leading me to rmb a string of events. hahaz.. lalala~

grrr. erjie said junyang looks effeminate. can see my fumes? lol. where gottttt!!!!!! and when my mummy told kor she watched the superstar finals, he said, "wei shen me ni kan zhe zhong xiao hai zi kan de xi??" (why did you watch a show tt kids watch?)

this really shows the generation gaps okay. but i still love my siblings and mummy la. duhh. hahaz.. mummy is more like mE cos she hun4 more with me? hehehe. ;)~

ohhdear. tmr is gg to be a full day of pw.. *squeaks* i dowan! hahaz.. but NONO! i musn't be like this okay. shld go have a good night's slp. maybe i can be more positive. but i dowan deal with mou mou mou again. =S. SIGHHZ.

ja ne then~

[#110]

basically did nth ytd.. hehe.. nvr have i been constructive on a public hol or sch hol when i'm at hm.. but either i'm slacking at hm or i'll be outside. yepps. this is just so mE. lazy stupid yc. haii. think i was too excited about the event that wld be coming up at 730pm la.. thick and peabrained yc didn't think of arranging a pw meeting on tt day. at least the day cld have been constructive? or mabbe we all needed a break frm all the sch stuff. but ehh that wld have been an excuse. but hello.. yc is not the grp leader!! she's just a secretary!! but she still feels dumb cos anybody cld have suggested a meeting.. argh!! why didn't she think of it!!! the wr will be in a total messsss again!!! saD. projects nvr used to be like this. sighhz.

listening to junyang's voice is therapeutic i guess. whee~ :). junyangjunyangjunyang!! his voice has this soothing element baa? hahaz.. lalala~ yeaaaa!!! ytd's finals was great!! :D^^ enjoyed the whole performance!!! lolllx.. was laughing evilly at the 3 kelly fans who dressed up as mummies.. lol.. they looked stupid!!! heyys i'm being mean.. but they really looked totally spas.. but i really pei fu their love for kelly and yi li!! fancy nt gg toilet for 6 hours? maybe they didnt touch a drop of water thruout e day. lol. ohh yea.. the whole 2hrs+ of singing were really enjoyable!! liked kelvin's nan ren hai yang!! very nice.. kelly's afro head was shockinG!!!! omg. haha.. but her outfit looked quite pei la.. and plus the song and all... but abit kua zhang.. but her first song yan se was coool too! i liked tt melody! lol. kelvin's 2nd song was really touching.. if i were alone watching mabbe i will luo lei too.. and his qing chang was beautiful, and when the piano came in it sounded so natural.. and the background he yin guys were wonderful too.. soft and in the bckground.. and pei de very good!!! kelly's wasn't as good.. the girls at the bg abit too loud.. the ba ba ba.. tsk!

heee.. and aWwwWw!! junyang's solO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what can i say? am jealous of the first row pple! they shook hands with junyang! hahx.. ohh and xinhui was pretty too! hahaz.. and the duet wuding by the both of them.. waaaa. made me tao zui qi zhong!! ((:~

the yi qian nian yi hou kelvin sang with jj was real weird tho.. x(.. haha.. they have two very different styles ba.. jj's very R&B de mar.. then kelvin sounded abit ge ge bu ru then.. kelly sang the mu nai yi well tho, w jj.. more chemistry.. mabbe cos kelly's style is at least more similar to jj as compared to kelvin.. hmm.. and aso, can't be helped cos kelvin can't really jiao liu with jj more.. and guy plus guy will be real weird. lol. the bei feng chui guo de xia tian.. waa. abit no eyes to see. sighhz.

the songs the judges wrote were nice.. li fei hui wrote the one for kelvin, and xu huan liang filled in the lyrics.. liked the melody actually.. but dunno why when kelvin sang.. it didn't turn out as good.. his high notes were weak.. kelly's was written by li wei song.. but their mu dis were diff lor.. li fei hui meant the song to be a 'duo ming qu', but li wei song meant the song to be sth tt he liang sheng ding zuo for kelly.. for her to fa hui.. one to show weakness, one to show strengths.. isn't it unfair? hahaz.. i dunno.. but liked both songs.. and whoaa. kelly's rendition of the song was cool. hahaz..

then the very last song! i think kelvin seemed to have lost the confidence he had for the first two songs.. mabbe cos he flopped a little for the 3rd and 4th.. but i wasn't really too touched by the song.. kelly's last song was really really really hao hao ting!!!! her gown looked darned big and heavy too. hee. but yepp! i nvr thought she cld sing SO well la. X)! hehe.. but yarr.. she finished it off with a big bang..

then the other 10 finalists performed again!!! i enjoyed [ my anata ] lots! hehe. the guys looked so cute. hahazz.. and junyang's dancing skills seemed to have improved!! lalala~ and i was amazed by shi xinhui.. she was like dancing jumping prancing arnd the stage with her super high high heels!! hahaz.. pei fu peifu.. i can't even dancee with flat sports shoes or walk properly with high heels.. and she dances and jumps in high heels! lol.. candyce's heels weren't as tall as her.. hehe..

and wwwwwwwow. jj's performance!!!!!! hao lihaii!!! he's so gooood! hahahaz.. he very cute la.. and so talented.. and his dance moves~ woooooOts!! bu kui shi lin junjie!! =D=D~ though he gained weight and looked decidedly chubby.. but nvm.. he'll slim down soon ba.. hehe.. somehow.. hahaz.. when u hun4 in the entertainment circle, sure hafta watch your weight properly.. but yeaa.. he really entertained the audience real welll la! hahax.. =D free show lehhz.. the audience zhuan4 dao!! cos the tixs free mar. hehe..

soo.. the results were expected! kelvin won.. he's our superstar.. cld see that kelly was truly happy for him.. (: that's the way competitions shld be right? good losers and good winners! :D. haha.. but whatever it is, this is what singaporeans want.. yarr.. kelvin muz jiayoou.. =).. and yepps! will still cont to hear frm kelly cos universal music gonna sign her up! ^_^~ and needless to say, junyang will be signed up too!! till then.. let's wait patiently for their albums!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahaz.. no more superstar. my weds and thurs nights will be kong xu le.

boooks. notes. my lovely subjs!! here i come.

hahAx..

okay.. u got to really become a mugger alright? not much time leftt! might as well muG!!! (;(;~

JIAYOOOOOOOOU! ^o^V

[#109]

shldn't be feeling sad now but i am.. i dunno how to describe this weird feeling i have.. but.. arghh. i just feel so sick of everything.. how can school become so irritating and unenjoyable and sucky? just feel so helpless in school nowadays.. siaan.. even a short day can bring my spirits down.. just one lecture is enough.. i dunno.. been feeling horrible.. don't even know why i feel this way..

stressed.

and i'm sick of moaning to myself. sick of the mentality of dreading school. sick of being miserable. why the hell am i feeling miserable anyhow??

can't really think straight but i'm really tired.

maybe that's why i'm irritable and negative now.

i still think jc life is darned different.

i've become a meaner person.

:(.

guess i'll be okay soon.