hiehie.

i'm supposed to be doing my econs essay plan and the essay itself. i'd run out of foolscap so i decided to type and print instead. conveniently i press connect to starhub dialup and here i am blogggggging. BAAAAAAAAAAAH! kay. i will definitely get to work very very soon. anyway heard this stupid lame joke on 93.3 this morning. here goes.

one day, i was taking a morning stroll in the park downstairs with my beloved husband and dog. we are happily married, for 10 days, 13 hours, 45 minutes and 2 seconds. on my wedding ring finger, there's this 3-carat diamond ring my hubby gave me~ sigh~ i feel blissful as i flashed my ring at all the joggers and brisk-walkers who passed by me. they looked at my ring with pure jealousy shining in their eyes. ahhhhhaha. i smiled smugly. after walking for some time, we sat down on a bench to take a short break. suddenly, an old woman in ragged clothes that were filled with dirt walked up towards us. i recognised her as my form teacher from primary school! gosh! she pointed her finger at me and hollered, "You are to stand for the rest of the lessons for the weeek!"

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okkkkkay. i'm offfff to ECONS ESSAY.

hieee.

been wanting to update but there seems to be nothing much to say. each time i click create post and arrive at this big blank box, i just face this big patch of blankness and stone. type a few meaningless words that somehow form a crappy para. finally i will just close the whole window. perhaps i just can't express myself clearly. dunno.

happy holidays.

it's the hmm, counting the first weekend, fourth day of holidays. i still have 5 more days to complete hw, to revise my maths topics, go through my honglou. although i'd somehow read thru the 40huis, apparently i'd been either half asleep throughout some huis, or i'd conveniently skipped through certain big paras, cos i seem to have zero recollection of some chunks. BAHH. sigh.

made new specs tdy. had the intention of saving money but ended spending more. =.=" now i wish i'd taken btr care of my eyes. are 550 and 575 considered very high degrees? hmmmm. but the frame is really quite nice. hahaa. the frameless kind didn't suit me. didn't look right. sad. i had been so set on framless specs initially. anyway. i'm tired of looking abt the same always. so... i'm investing on this new pair of specs! ahem. mahaha.

in the midst of explaining all the factors as to why i chged specs and chged into something soo ex to yt.

convincing myself as well.

AHHH.

i can predict that i will have dissavings when i grow up. meaning when i work and earn my own keep. sigh.

suddenly reminded of the fact that i still have not taken my ipod shuffle to payalebar to repair it. perfect case of procrastination.

marche is a nice place.=). rosti!!! yummmmms. went with ky vann sher last friday.. ky lost a bet to sher so she had to treat her.. vann and me tagged along lo~ haha.. it had been fish and co.. then we changed our minds. hehe. we had pizza, rosti, potato, crepes, soooup! spent $10~ i want sakae! all of a sudden.

huangcheng was nice=).

holidays are never long enough.

but it's good to get some sleep.

ntu is sooo far. booooonlay. the 179 bus will be filled with people during the peak hrs of getting to sch and gg hm from sch. hai. if i really go ntu i will stay in the halls ba. seems a little intimidating yet exciting! haha.. will be interesting ba! hall life sounded good when we went the nus open hse. haha. but you'll have to be very involved.. but it's a good time to learn independence. i'm sure i'll missss home and scream at all the bugs that will get in my room. SIGH. oh. and the expenses as well. rental of the rooms are not cheap.

nvmm.. enough of contemplating varsity life when i'm still striving hard to produce the grades that will secure me a place in it.

jiayou.

jaaa.

lone butterfly. ^-^! 

chunkyvansher.=) 

san que yi. qian shou guan yin(;. 

san que yi! V-A-N.  

10march. peng you.:) 

10march. gurl power! 

BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

i get SO irritated sometimes.

我知道我不是最好的。 但是﹐我絕對不是你想像中的爛。“你走開﹗”

這算在無理取鬧吧。可是﹐有時真的受不了了。我好笨。這麼在乎有什麼用﹖把時間和精神花在更有用的地方吧。但是有時候﹐真的很難受。已經很不好受了﹐還不停的有那種被人瞧不起的感覺。走開。

覺得自己好虛偽。

真是白痴。

別想了。

再胡思亂想下去﹐你就可以跟什麼國大﹑南大﹑新大說再見了。

人﹐為了理想而活。人﹐為了目標而前進。人﹐找到了志向就能勇往前進。

我沒有什麼偉大的志願。

短暫的目標就有一個。

就點到為止。

不必多說﹐大家心裡都應該心知肚明吧。

jaaa.

hey.
i guess anybody who knew him, through class, cca or somehow or rather, wld have felt extremely shocked and subdued at the news. i didn't know him personally, but it was saddening news. he gave me the impression he was happy-go-lucky and didn't have a care in the world.. he was bright, he was popular, he played the drums so well.. although i can't say i agree to his decision, i respect it still. it was his choice. he must have gone through a lot of mental struggle and pain, before he arrived at the decision. it wld not have been a brash one. it took a lot of courage as well. i will never be able to pick up enough courage to actually do it. sigh. i hope wherever he is now, he is happy and peaceful. rest in peace. take care.

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我們總是把‘死’掛在嘴邊。什麼功課這麼多﹐好想死啊。什麼那麼多壓力﹐要我死啊﹖什麼每天過著這種無聊的日子﹐老是和課業折騰﹐死了不就好。。現在想想。好幼稚。

前幾天﹐剛說了自己不介意死亡。因為對這個世界沒有什麼依戀。就算第二天醒不過來﹐也無所謂。但是。其實。一個人﹐不管是多麼的渺小﹐哪怕在地球上每天只需零點零零零零零零一八仙的氧氣﹐他還是有生存的意義﹑生存下去的理由。沒有一個人是沒必要存在的。只要你存在著﹐就是一種肯定。不要否定你在世界上的重要性。不要縮短你在世上該逗留的時間。

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i love you all, my dear friends. sigh. are all humans the same? only realising the true meaning of cherishing when you've lost something. hao xu wei. but felt this great urge to meet up with friends i have not seen or talked to or caught up with or neglected these few months. hai.

jaaa.

it's time to love BY and DY again.