boo.

tdy was another day spent in leisure, and boy it's bad that i'm not feeling any guilt. mann. where's my mugger instinct? hahaha. wells mugger instinct just refers to the guilt ridden pangs i will get from not mugging hard enough. having guilt panics is one thing, doing something abt it is an entirely different issue.

played uno with nephew tdy and it's a different uno game from the traditional kind i'd played all my life.. each player draws 7 cards and shows them up. then the players tk turns to place a card on the middle pile of cards, matching colour/number/words. weird huh. points determine the winner, first player to reach 500points wins. 20points are earned each time you clear 7 of your cards, then you will carry on w the game by drawing another 7. rather tiring game cos 500 points is almost impossible to reach. lol.

it's offday tmr~ gonna go ky's hse to watch 恶女阿楚。 don't hv any remorseful feelings cos i've cleared my chinese stud term paper! (okay but there's like a hist test on wed, soci paper due on fri, chinese lang paper due nxt mon) and we gonna give gu a call! yayy. i miss you, gu..!! stop sending your armies of beetles to my home! scaring me with their incessant rushing about madly stunts or smashing against lightbulbs act. boohoo. had gotten so sensitive over the sound beetles made that i actually thought a beetle was crashing onto the (tightlyclosed and locked) window panes of my studyroom when it was only pattering of rain. ._." talk about exaggerating. ha. ha.

anyway, yes, i really love my offdays. dunno. university school days are not something i look forward to. i've always loved gg to school, honestly. i mean, not for the lessons obviously, bt fr the company of friends, the different sudden events that may happen during the usual routines.. my interest in schooling waned a litttle during the two jc yrs, bt still.. there were still reasons that keep me looking forward to gg to school. it's sadly so not the case fr me now. university is really too big and huge and cold and scary and humongous. i don't like the feeling of not being surrounded by familiar faces and the high probability of bumping into another familiar face. of cos, i'm really lucky that fr this sem, i hv ky whose lessons are identical to mine, but what about the consecutive sems? constantly having to search fr a familiar place in the cold unfeeling large grounds of nus isn't a fantastic feeling. makes me feel miserable/vulnerable/dependent. okay, so what if universities are supposed to inculcate the sense of independence in one's self? i so don't like the idea. sighh. what to do? just got to adapt. adapt. adapt. the sem is coming to a close soon. much too soon. haven't even found my footing, and i hv to go into exam halls end nov-early dec. and then i'll hv to go through the whole damnit stupid process of bidding agn for sem2 modules. wth.

i want to widen my social circle! i want all my old friends to be here with me! =//.

sighh.

okay, let's count our blessings towards the end of this entry.

i still hv a really great bunch of old friends here with me here and we do see one another once to twice a week.

i'm not saddled with stress with project datelines and never ending tests, presentations and whatnots. (i'm so sorry fr my friends who have to suffer through all these.. jiayou and stay strong and hold on to whatever little faith you might b left with! *hug*)

i have a nice warm great family.

my birthday is coming soon.

i am the kind of girl who can be satisfied easily. eating my favourite food or something i've craved fr something can mk my day. (although im getting more temperamental these days..) staring at mike he's face can mk some of my troubles evaporate (for some time). listening to happy songs can lift my spirits. having a good chat with my nice friends can leave me in smiles. etcetc.

i have completed my darned chinese studies term paper (let's not fret abt the quality of it fr nw)

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my sis told me sth funny tdy.

sis: (calling out to her daughter aka my niece)Sweetie, come here..
niece: (bounces over) Hello salty!
sis: 0_0

haha. cheeeky.

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passing thought: my brother's getting married real soon!

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aja aja!!

we must all jiayou=).

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dajie must jiayou:). i lovee you *hug*

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k i must really get back to that mountains of readings i got to gobble down my throat before wedddd..

i need an A fr the test! *bleats* to balance off the stupid C+ frm the previous test. SIGH..