boo!

been feeling bored after i stopped working.. been out everyday tho. but there's still this feeling that i hv a lot of time on my hands. hoho. but i have not a) tidied my desks, b) tidied my drawers, c) tidied my studyroom! tried to calculate june's expenditure without much success cos my brain isn't very big. listened to abit of 933 this afternoon while i entertained my terrapin and read the priestess of the white.

i know i should get more hyped up about university, which will start in exactly one month, but i just don't have the mood. so i guess going for the orientation will help. thinking of what cca to join may help too. hope the matriculation/cca fair will mk me as excited as choccy fr school to start. hehe.

lost track of days since i stopped working. come to think of it. when you work, the days just drift past as well. it's just that you'll tk especial notice of fridays, mondays and weekends. not working has its pros and cons. think i'm talking crap. hahahha.

OKAY I SHALL GET A LAPPIE.

thnks choccy fr mkg me less ulu regardin lappies. haha. i shall jiayou and find a durable and pro looking and LIGHT one, and of cos value-fr-$$$ de.

i can't believe i'm sleeping at this kind of shit time agn. and hv to wake quite early tmr. and i haven't done anything to prepare sunday's tuition! i'm so dead..

hmmm. getting a golden retriever as a partner for life mayn't be such a bad decision after all. just that golden retrievers are abit on the large side, and i don't think i'll earn enough bucks to live in a big house with a big garden for it to roam and exercise, and i don't think i can take the weight of it if it decides to pounce on me, and .... .... .....

but then again, i can frighten gu w it when she comes to visit. MUAHAHA. still rmb her jumping arnd and keeping her legs up on the chair when the small white dog (vann's cousin's dog which came as well when we went to vann's hse) which was terrified of birds dashed about in the house.

nvm. i shall be original and not steal avelyn's idea. i shall keep ... ... ... MEHMEH!!! white and fluffy and cute:))).

i must be out of my mind.

zzzZzzz.

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was eating doritoes this afternoon and suddenly reminded of the centre. haha. recalled the trip to the farms. felt that it was v sweet to hv a p3 girl dragging you arnd to look at all the fishes. haha. and being scared simultaneously by this supposedly named crocodile fish or whatever (as i said, my brain isn't very large). and the chattering of my chillipadi and my monsters. my mr showoff and mr hooligan. my sweet godson who smiled at me so sweetly that time i met him at bedok blk207 food centre. and stupid me who only realised durin the last few days that tkg videoclips will be the solution to storing memories of my camera-shy laughing queen. the 天不怕地不怕 xiao lao shu being so afraid of the dead bee and screaming the loudest whenever the piece of tissue with the bee was brought near him. the times when i felt so exasperated and useless cos of the quarrelsome and disagreeable monsters.

looking back the six months, i can't say in earnest that i've learnt this much or that much. but i've enjoyed my stay with them. i've enjoyed their company, in the innocent and safe environment. i've seen things i thought i wld never see. i've realised that kids are just kids, no matter what.

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mmmhmm.

i shall be need to be enthu and less laidback in uni. i have to be more involved and more extroverted.

although i feel quite confused sometimes. enthusiasm can be read as fakeness sometimes. i wonder if i ever came across as fake sometimes whilst i was all hyped up about stuff last time in secondary school. *shrugs* but the me now can't be bothered with all these judgmental impressions. think whatever you want, but i know what's the real me. i do wonder if i can let go so easily sometimes but on the other hand, it's pretty useless mulling over all these stuff cos there is no way 100% of the Earth's population will be satisfied with you/your actions.



jaa.

shld get some sleep.