annyeong-haseyo!

korean class was interesting:). ne, it's fun to learn it with friends. haha. a, ya, o, yo, oe, yoe, u, yu, eu, i. heheh. yaay. looking forward to more lessons and learning more!

my right eye is itching again. sucks. i hv this incredible urge to pull it out and give it a good scratch. sounds happy tree friends-ish eh. sigh.

i'd been thinking that i've bonded quite well with the bunch of them in my room. been wondering what kind of relationship do i share with them? teacher-student relationship doesn't seem right. we're definitely not on equal status, but yet i'm not so-called as high up as a teacher figure stands in their minds. for one thing, they don't really fear me. i hv the authority to keep them in order altho they may not always listen (half of the time they don't). i help solve their questions when they are in doubt.

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above was typed on thurs. thoughts that go nowhere always surface when i hv too much time on my hands. haha. i suppose, i really don't mind being the normal me with the kids. the non-assertive sort. i just hope that i'll be able to teach them some things throughout these few months. academic wise i might not be able to help them that much, cos it's mostly up to them to learn and gain knowledge. but whatever is within my means, i try to mk them learn, or pick up some unorthodox but yet still useful skills during exams. values and lessons in life will be even harder, as i'm not much wiser than they are with the small age gap, but i hope i can still teach them to be more giving and less aggressive. sighh. HOPE la. in huge caps. i really hope something good will come out these five or six months. i generally see good in most people, so i hope to keep up with this notion in mind after leaving the centre. which i believe i can ba. they aren't bad kids. but there are certain habits that i really detest. Pointing fingers, answering back with excuses to push all blame from themselves, being defensive, badmouthing people, pettiness. maybe showing blatant dislike is a form of forthrightness. granted you may hv something against this person as he or she did something to incur your wrath. but i don't see why there is a need to gang up with a few of your friends to ostracize that person. seeing behaviour like that really mks me wonder. are these 11 and 12-yr olds? i certainly hope that it is just childish antics and something that they will grow out of it and not the kind of attitude they will grow up with. maybe i'm just exaggerating or reading too much between the lines. maybe it's a stage we all go through as children. or children nowadays all are premature babies. mmm. maybe i am too narrow minded, or hv this Utopian thinking. that all children should stay pure and hv that right dosage of childish innocence in them.

it's okay. i do still see the innocence here and there, now and then at the centre.

but some bad habits had got rubbed off my dearest godson. he has become less angelic. haa. sincerely hope the dears will not grow up and evolve into monsters:).

meanwhile, dear monsters, please mk my stay here in your territories a more pleasant one with more good memories than bad:).

and meanwhile, dear yc, don't contemplate too much. and live up to your forgetfulness. and... see the good in them, but don't get too carried away and put too many wings on their backs. keep in mind that there are still some lines that cannot be crossed.

heh.

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annyeong-hi gaseyo~