hey.

just didnt feel like going home tdy although i was feeling rather tired. brain wasn't really functioning much while i did my math tut during those chem breaks.. so didn't absorbed much and did mechanically with the reference of notes now and then fr all the same few things. hmmms. drifted to lalaland at some junctures fr econs. fr guwen as well (tho that's pretty common). but zhanglang's voice did travel into my ears while my eyelids closed and hand stopped moving. and what did i do fr maths? *racks brain* ahh nvm. i swear i will not sit beside crazy mslum again during lessons. had to "endure" the brunt of her madness fr ytd and tdy's math tut. hahah. entertainment yes but i think i prefer to be kept sane and save, thnkyou very much. hurhur. =Pp. gurl. pls be normal once in a while yar? ahhah. although it mayn't be you anymore but stillllllll.

hv i mentioned this before? but being poor sucks. haha. imagine. eating bread fr lunch. not those nice kind of bread you find in fourleaves/breadtalk, but a big pack of six tau sa baos, and a smaller pack of 4 big butter+sugar bread. not to say the bread weren't nice but as i've known since dunno when, my friends are all nice and sweet and uber-caring that they cldnt stop commenting on my choice of lunch.

i cannot picture myself taking my prelims. so it is even more difficult to imagine what's going to happen to me ten years down the road. i don't have any clear direction. it's more of a living day by day thing fr me. what am i going to study fr uni? i somewhat know. but it doesn't seem to point to a particular future job. teaching is not something i want to do or have a passion for.

and i'm sorry i snapped this morning. or maybe it wasn't really noticeable but i spose the irritatedness showed. i guess it was just this momentary lapse in my self control eh. it's not a spontaneous thing.

i'm really crawling.

can i please speed up?

i need to.

ohh, and thnks meiq fr the spongebob eps. it was cuute.=)). loll. completely brainless but hey. i still love it(;.

there are some keywords i need to grasp.

priorities. concentration. strength. drive.

jaaa.