BAH.

totally screwed up the econs test ytd.. don't feel like mentioning it.. whenever i hear it being mentioned, i can just feel that sinking feeling, the gloom settling over, the dread and fear and whatnots. arghhh. it's soo sickening. so disgusting. i have seriously nvr ever felt so depressed after an econs test. it was almost the same feeling as the promo essay qn. that stupid mkt structure qn. but this is WORSE. argh.

and i was so pissed by math tut4. so pissed by my calculator. maybe i was too tired or sth last night. i pressed and pressed the damned calculator and it kept giving me wrong answers. it was so freaking idiotic. and it happened again this morning, before assembly. it was darned frustrating and i just felt like tearing up the paper and shreding it into millions of pieces. and during the free period before lep or some lesson, battled with the calculator again. felt like crushing the bldy papers. got annoyed. then irritated. then as frustration piled on, desperation took over. then i felt like crying. it was so freaking crap. fancy. all these tumult of feelings. all for one small, singular, pathetic MATHS tutorial.

ohh. the crappy tears threatened to flow out but they didn't. then my dear friends started to discuss the econs test ytd, talking abt how they did not complete qns part b (i didn't even get part a correct, needless to say part b. didn't attempt cos i was busy feeling confused over part a.), and that they will fail. bleargh. under normal circumstances i might not have felt so damnit pissed, but right then and there, i just felt like slamming the table and walking off. or just start crying.

but nah. those negative feelings had died down as the day went on.

you see. life still goes on.

i am stressed.

and i started regretting. taking. econs.

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but obviously, everything's too late so i can only go forward. it will be pointless dwelling over what choices i should have made instead.

and i didn't rcv my blue rose and sunflower. sighh. sobb. vj cancelled all orders for refunds. sooooo envious of the lucky ppl (tj ppl give tj ppl de) who got their flowers tdy. fresh and crisp.

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jaaa.

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