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ahahahx.. my nose is leaking again!!!!!!! siann. tho sore throat is much btrr.. mmmmrrmx..

went bck dhs see dhscs dazu ytd.. didn't want to go at first.. in the end i dunno why i gt persuaded there.. felt abit guilty cos had arranged to go mug with meiyun and xiaoting.. but early in e morning i had cramps and a very sore throat so pangseh-ed them.. sorry gurls!! and i acutally went out and wasted a whole half day. arrhhhh. FULL of guilt. but before i went out i finally did something abt the gp stuff my sis told me to do.. yarr. i think i shld go do a compre and essay for dajie ltr.. if not really gu fu her lehhz. ARGH. wanna die when i think of maths..

met up with sh.. then tada!! surprisingly minyu was there too! hahax.. sh peng dao minyu ma.. yepp.. so we had lunch tog.. chatchat abit over lunch and on 30.. ahh! minyu told me ru guo de shi is a les song!!! lollll.. actually it's quite true if you look carefully at the lyrics... but it's like HMM. hahax.. hui bu hui shi xiang tai duo le? lol..

read thru those short stories i used to write.. hahaha.. was laughing at myself.. wellls. felt abit you zhi la.. but abit proud of myself too.. hmmz.. i haven't used my brain cells for a looong time nehhs. seems like 3/4s of them had died. maybe writing ff helps.. but i haven't touched them for a long time..

nice surprise in da morning when amanda talked to mE! my ASM! hahax.. this bubbly cheery caring errxin gurl... ahh.. memories of byg. =). tho there were those unhappy encounters.. the probs.. mummy's bu man.. but still.. those memories are dear to mE.. nxt yr's byg.. i will def go support.. but the sense of loss will definitely surface.. yepp.. i cld've stayed there.. and fen dou along with themm.. but i left. yaa. :(. nvm. those peepz, nyccs peepz, will def put up a grreeat show!!!!!!!!! =D u guys muz jiayouu!

the dazu games seemed really quite fun! hahax.. sh, jiahui and i self-entertained abit.. nice to see da juniors again!! probs abit qingchun.. yaa.. i think the juniors are facing enough stress.. instead of reproaching them about what they have not done.. shldn't we show them encouragement instead?? i think they wld end up feeling pissed aft tt talk ytd.. i didn't really speak up.. wells, firstly i don't think i have the zi ge la.. bi jing my experience isn't that broad.. i know about as much as the juniors do.. but i guess i'm more concerned abt how they feel.. and the most impt thing now is not to point fingers at who's wrong.. shld try to improve the standard rite.. try to solve the more ji shou prob.. and shldn't zhi zhuo on what cannot be done.. i mean.. it's really impossible to bring in drastic changes.. changes have to be done.. but by bit by bit.. taking too great a leap forward will only nong qiao fan zhuo.. just like maomaomao (as what our beloved mrs tan bee kee likes to say!! hee..) de great leap fwd and cultural rev.. they were great and noble ideas to chg china.. but it happened too fast.. it's impossible to get a huge number of people to keep up with the swift pace and rapid chges.. some things are just not within our control..

actually i feel a bit shi bai.. didn't dare to speak out.. i shld have i think. wish i'm stronger.. if xinhui or huijun were present. i'm quite sure they wld have spoken up.. provided they think the same way as i do? i dunno. i'm just used to being the bckgrnd? jiu zai hou mian.. jing jing de zuo zai na bian.. filll up the space jiu ok le. felt useless. yc!!! or mabbe i just don't wanna blow things up.. and felt inferior.. don't think i can rebut bck strongly either.. yaa.. rather than like qi nei hong in frnt of juniors. just let them say what they so strongly feel while i just sit there like an outsider. wanna tell the juniors to jiayou and give them moral support and all.. but i feel it's also not what they need. maybe not what they'll appreciate baa. haii. but really hope qingchun will be successful!!

juniors.. you guys muz show and prove your worth! jiayouu!! i'm sure actually each and every one of the seniors wanna see you peepz succeed and present a wonderful show!! =D who will want to see their own juniors putting up below expectations perf?? yaa.. no matter what the cheng guo is. i will still support you guys... qingchun bu guan zen yang. dou shi dhscs de production. wo yi ding hai hui qu zhi chi de. for one thing, i strongly disagree the fact tt i will nt go to the 06 qingchun perf if the perf is so called "lan4". i dont believe tt there is a lan perf. unless not one ounce of effort has been put in. yea. maybe blindly supporting but tts what i can do now.. since i have little practical experience tt can help them improve...

although a few months may not be able to work wonders.. i sincerely wish all the best for the juniors involved in dhscs qing chun xuan lv pdtion!! :D~ wo deng zhe kan ni men piao liang de yan chu!!

yi wang guo qu. i like the lyrics.. wo wang bu liao xin sui de guo qu.. ke shi wo bi xu mian dui wo zi ji.. wei lai sheng ming yong shen me lai dai ti.. kao zi ji qu zheng qu.. tried to search for e lyrics.. but i give up!!! will listen over and over to get the lyrics ba. lol.. x)~

jaa ne for now.