[#98]

7aug'o5

haiii.

comp internet is down.. not really exactly down.. i can get online, can get on MSN, but cant view any webpages.. it's sickening.. dunno what went wrong. sighhz. but it must be the windows media player's fault. upgraded it to version10. arghargharghh. apparently it's due to sth that came with the version that screwed up the windows.. can't view my old mswrd doc files. it's disgusting. sickening. sickening. SICKENING!!! the whole xp thingy seems to have been reinstalled or what. wthh!!!!!!! hate it.

realized how impt all those docs are to me. =s. and how impt those webpgs are.. don't like this reliance on my comp.. or the reliance on my hp.. without these stuff i seem to feel so lost. x). realized that i can lose my cool quite ezly. this shldn't be the case~ cldn't even think properly.. forgot my brother has this other device called the laptop. ~_~. perhaps it's good in a way when my comp goes nuts sometimes. makes me realize my heavy reliance on it..................

=,=". have i saved yuxiang's email wrongly all this while? had a weird short convo with him just now.. he initiated the convo, and said helllo then said he just returned from austrialia (arnd 2pm). like wthhh???????????????????????????????? strangestrangEstranGEstraNGEstrANGEstRANGEsTRANGESTRANGE. super duper qi guai la.. and he wanted to play minesweeper flags wif me.. but mine cldn't start.. he said sth like wantg to kick my ass in that game. errrr? will yuxiang say things like that? i really dunno. mabbe i really added the person wrongly. e weirdest thing is still the austrialia one.. how izzit possible? doesn't make sense..

enjoying shaman king songs now.. ohhyea.. lost all my received files =(. meaning quite a few fu pics, mp3s and yaa. ARGH. all my emoticons.. my precious emoticons!!!! which had become part of mai life. nvmm. i can collect them all over again. +S. but it's so sian.. and the most sickening part is i dunno why but i can't add ppl's emoticons now.. it's still msn7.0 mar! argh.

jes jie's voice is really nicee~ listening to her bu zai zi kun now.. haha.. dong ting dong ting!! very emotional as well. *clapsclaps* gt professional bg music and all.. harp? organ? hmmMmMm. lol. mEP!!!! oh! superstar...! those judges always like to say what got gandong du. lol. hai. e trash that goes thru my mind. sighhz. lalala~ i gonna gt a busy and healthy lifestyle!! must run.. play ballgames.. study hard.. promos just round da corner..

ahhh.. rock and rolllllllllllllllll~!!! okkay. cos it's sly's it's my life now^^. lolzz. he's still suitable for those rock and happening songs.. where you can go outta tune and still sound woooOo. but here he sounds so li bu cong xin.. it's SI finals de.. hahaz.. wells. shall switch to his album ltr...

situps situps situps!!!! erghhx. so CMI. but i have improved suddenly.. this night while watching inuyasha i decided to train.. somehow i cld actually do proper situps lehhz. amazed myself. !_!~ i'm so useless la.. 10 situps is a struggle.. and ppl talk abt 20,30, even 40 situps (siao. will nvr be able to do that at a go. within 1min summore! walao. hahahax. bian tAI!!!!!!). i must jiayouu. die also must pass napfa. don't wanna be the only one retaking napfa and nt be able to play ball games or whatever with my scg. hhaz.. but even my broadjump sucks now....... and pullups. how many needed? shld gao hao situps first and foremost now... and train my running too! i wanna run within 15mins! (:

bought this cross-stitch keychain at simei ntuc! it's poohbear! hahaz.. just when im about to start doing i realize i dunno how to open the keychain thingy to extract the vinyl cloth to do the pooh pattern. ha ha. as usual i'm this stupid. :(

leo got me a new tutee!! waaa. hahaz.. thnkyou thnkyou! but it's a guy whose name i have no idea how to pronounce! ahh. so paiseh.. that's why i smsed him instead.. was quite worried tt he has a hp, meaning he cld be p6.. but he's p2!! yay! p2 shld be alright. no science mar. wahahhaha. but i can't speak mandarin. nvm.. shall learn to speak pure english. good time to train my eng :). i know mrslofthse will be glad. x.X"

lalala~ oohh.. saw weicong on tv tdy.. it was like a small excerpt of him talking abt after getting kicked out of superstar.. sighhz. bckgrnd music was the "wo hai neng ai shui" he sang... arhh. felt so sad aft watching that. he definitely had more shi li than that jason. and plus he was tall and had more superstar feel than jason okay. :(. derrick and junyang are abit too small sized. lol. okay to be fair, sly isn't really tall. neither is renfu tall. ermz. but at least fu is 173cm!!!! derrick is like 165cm????? just 1cm taller than mE. *_*~ okaokay, but im not saying he isn't cute nor saying his voice isn't nice. his voice quality had improved again during the jiu qu xin chang round.. anw.. bck to weicong.. think tt time when he sang wo hai neng ai shui it was damn dong ting la!! and his wuha dance was cute lor.. hehe. andy hui shld thnk weicong for choosing his song. now i like this song. hahaz.. if im not wrong, e original singer is andy hui la.. i nvr liked andy hui. lol.. andy hui fans don't come and hack me! just a personal comment. anyhow don't think any andy hui fan reads my blog? jian guo ni de mEiiiii, wo hai neng aii shuii~~~~~ dadadadadalalaa.. mei you nii, hui mian muu quan feiii~

arhhh. did i mention renfu's throat gt problem? think i did. lol. fufu gt well soon!! then you can talk as much as you want and bao chou!!!! hahazz.. lately xiezhi dey all had been diggin at him and making fun of him not being to talk mar.. tsktsk! bully fu!! hMPHx.

ntu gave this zhong wen xi talk last wed.. it was interesting!! about hanzi and all.. haha.. made me xin yang yang.. shld i go nan da zhong wen xi? be a translator?? come to think of it... dunno what my future job will be.. what's my dream job? to do something i really like and have no pressing deadlines? lol. designing stuff is so cool. drawing too. fashion design? i think it's really cool.. but that's a poly course? architecture? design buildings..... computer game artist! there's such a job! really.. like when you play some games, the bckground and all those little stuff here and there, all designed by these artists.. fun eh? (: although these stuff mayn't be really noticed but still. i guess, it's the sense of achievement that counts? just like those cute mushrooms in maplestory. i'll be proud to say those are my creatns! so why not i be one? haha.. but ya.. that's also a polycourse.. confusing.. just want a more free and easy job.. i'm really not those high flyers.. over achievers.. just need to earn my keep and stay happy^.^~

have been typing for almost an hour i think.. tsktsk. ahahz.. that just explains why i tk so long to get offline.. hao tong kuu.... nvm. i must be contented. at least i can still type in notepad.. i can still talk on msn (nt much use.. no1 to talk to.. siAn) i can still listen to musicc. still can play minesweeper.

i need the chong li to drive me fwd.. promos promos promos. the looooooming promos. even the thought doesn't help apply more pressure and stress to my mind. siann. dunno what's wrong with mE. where's my motivation to do wellll? to not disappoiint again and again????! i wanna promote!! i wanna gt promoted to j2 and not gt too stressed up cos i have too much to catch uP!!!!! no more excuses.. my pdps are all slackk ones.. as in i dun have any comm posts so my commitment ends at the meetgs and ya fts.

kay i shld get going... bathe and do wrk. yeaa.. ja nE~~~~~~
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

8aug'05

mmmmm.. e comp is seriously sickening.. hate it. are u clear? i HATE YOU!!!!!!!! stupid idiotic comp!!!!! hen si ni le.. why izzit so dumb.. like wthh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bldyhell. ARGHHHHHHH!!! going crazy without internet. it's one thing to be forbidden frm using e internet and one thing to being unable to use e internet.

really shldn't have gone to sch today.. dumb dumb dumb. wore polo n skirt today cos cldnt find a white shirt tt looks presentable to go with jeans.. didn't feel like wearing red.. don't wanna stand out (in e end most ppl wore red) amongst ppl.. thot tj ppl weren't on.. like e racial harmony day.. but i guess wearg homeclothes is really diff frm wearg an ethnic costume.. whatever. anyhow felt outta place cos e place swarmed with ppl in homeclothes. lol. nvm. haha.. lalala~ e performance was so fantastic we kept cheering and applauding. so nice. so interesting. i LOVED it. yayaya. the first bit was so boring.. co perf was not bad.. at least e qi fen is there.. hearing the suona reminded us of jieren's red face when he blows the suona during those dhsco concerts =P and somehow reminds us of wesley as well, with his drums! lol. dhsdhSdHSDHS!! ltr the wushu was alright.. the girls were really good, very sei and all.. peifu peifu!! but the guys were disappointing.. ~_~" no sei-ness when they shua their daos and jians and guns.. one of them was injured, so maybe he can be given e benefit of the doubt.. but the rest.. so CMI. mks me think of dhs wushu.. dhs wushu was so much better!!! but yar.. e tj wushu girls are still good. the indian dance was cute~ hehe.. e rest was rubbish again.. with that new nday song dance. ermmz. yaa.. only afew here and there were good. but i knoe u need the dance genes, if nt u can't dance well however hard u practice.. then they had massdance, so we just stayed arnd and watched most of the tj populatn dance happily and getting highh. wellls. what can i say? i dunno the dances but watchg them was rather enjoyable but felt sad aft a while. not sad cos i dunno e dances. but sad cos felt so lonesome..yeea.. red shirts.. reminds me of 05A5 dua ang pow jersey. made me miz ny and dhs so much.. if i were there.. either ny and dhs.. i will be one of many feeling high.. dancing arnd.. forming trains.. whatever.. just surrounded by many familiar faces and by the warmth...

felt coldd.

enough of the celebratn.. received dajie's sms teachg me how to open that keychain cross stitch thingy.. i succeeded!! yay! started to do.. not ez cos the squares are so small.. i will tk ages to finish altho it's rather small. hehe.. but i'll be so happy when i do finish!! so i muz jiayOOu! did 2 and 1/4 small corners, and a 3/4 line of purple squares.. man lan de.. but can't be helped cos i wanna do it well and it's been some time since i cross-stitched. i'm naturally slow when doing this sorta craft stuff.. just look at the speed i fold stars.. ky can fold 2 and i'm still at 1/2 or 1. sad. but nvm. i still enjOy! =D

shall go mug now.. do math? gP articles? stUdy ecOns laBoUr? i think i shld study ecOns labOur AND do math.. (:

mugger chun strikessssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!

i'm mizzing my blog SO MUCH. lol.

felt like a failure aft the math tuition with kor again. my sentence structure is weird.. felt like a failure aft math tuition with kor (aGAIN.) ahhz. looks btr. =[.

***

comp is officially alrighto againn!! muahahahhas. so darned happy can. (: