[#56]

don't really feel like updatg. shan't talk abt what i've done today? talk about the thoughts of the day?

56. 5566. ((: -smile- i haven't raved about them for a looong looong time. lately haven't been hearg any news of them. haven't talked to laura for a looong time as well.

dunno. lately, lookg at the list of ppl online on MSN, i really don't feel like chattg to anyone. finally decided to try talkg to priyanka, but she decides not to reply me. :( womann. you so busy arhhs? but yar.. her status is away. well, yc, not everyone is like you. they do not put their status as "away" for the sake of it. they mean it when they put it. yepp. and i haven't talked to ling or min for a looong time as well. when i see them come online, i don't know why... i don't feel the urge to click on and chat.. it's really weird. don't i want to find out what's gg on with their lives right now? don't i want to know what has happened this few months? how have they been.. how's everything?

i'm afraid.

i'm very afraid.

i'm scared that the chemistry wld have gone.

i'm scared the feelg will be strange.

i'm afraid of always chattg about the same topic.. so much that we'll chat for the sake of it.. circulatg those few questions over and over again. i'm so afraid.

wish i'm a guy sometimes. zhi zhi jie jie, bu tun tun tu tu. you shen me jiu zhi shuo. bu hui xiang zhe me duo. kao luu you kao luu. fan fu xiang xiang. shua xin ji. i dunno. sighh.

i may be just wu bing shen yin. but i wish time will just stop sometimes. so that things will never chg. and will just stay simply happy always. (:

nahh. i shld talk to them soon.

i must! anyway, i want an 05A5 outg. (;. tho there's no time.. but i guess if everyone can find a suitable day when everyone's free, i will gladly fork out my whole day. who cares about mugging?

haaaai.

lately i seemed to have lost some social skills. i have lost interest in meetg new people. i have lost interest in talking to ppl. i have lost interest in the phone. i have lost interest in MSN. i have lost interest in communicatg??

whatever. saw ban kou xian er's photo in the latest i-wkly just now and was squealg away. then i saw that photo of renfu and linda at the last 2nd pg or so. squealed again.

wtf.

got d/ced the minute i pressed "publish post" and yay, whole thing gone. luckily the front bits were saved. thnks blogger, for the "recover post" thingy. arghhh. lost all mood to cont what i'd left off.

mummy's started nagging. wheeee!!! let the streeeeess pile on. (: