[#15]
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hehe.. wrote in my blue notebk journal yesterday.. didn't switch on da comp, so decided to write instead.. anyway, the thoughts were really more personal anyhow. haha.. it's nice to write once in a while as well.. jux don't think i'll be able to write everyday? actually it's possible.. but they won't be extremely long entries cos my hand will get tired la. heh. it was weird, but after writing everything, i felt worse. felt depressed.. and my heart was cold and heavy.. it was strange.. thought i would actually feel better, but as i wrote on, i felt more and more depressed.. thinking keeps people alive but thinking makes people hmm. think too much. eHh. o.O"? haha.. okay.. hmm.. i mean.. thinking keeps people alive, but thinking also makes people delve too much into things, read too much into things, and finally cause people to ponder too much that they drive themselves crazy. yepps. something like that. whenever i start thinking a lot, everything switches to negative mode. hai.
felt a little bit more myself ytd.. one part of the day.. perhaps arnd civics time? felt a little less sane.. yarr.. felt more friendly.. guess that'll be good. found a guy in cg 14 who was in scg 34 too! happy.. cos thought no one in the cg was in arts stream except mii. hee.. he had jux transferred in mar, so didnt know. but anyway, in the end i won't be same scg as him too.. becos i realize they changed my scg to scg 15. ~_~ haha.. i was like searching for my name under scg34 but didn't have! searched around the last 5 scgs, still don't have my name?! haha.. went to look for mrs pang.. in the end i was in scg15.. haha.. which was kind of weird.. my scg like only a few arts stream here and there.. but maybe it's cos my subjects are zui bu arts de arts. cos lep is language, maths is maths, and econs is maths or science mar. hee..
i will survive in tj. i will. i will. i will. and i will tell myself that i will.
yeaa. enjoy the familiar faces' company i have in tj. ((: thnkies, dunmanians!
also felt a bit more myself today during.. hmm i forgot which lecture. haha.. was crashing all those sci lects liyan and lijun had *ok, ie chem and bio la. hahaha..*.. ermm.. yea.. i think it was gp? yar.. gp that turned out to be PW talk lect.. was crapping and laughing and talking with ly. hehe.. it was fun. actually felt high lehhs. -smile- talking before gp started with ly, lijun, yilun and jiahui in the canteen reminded mii of ny times too (;. hehe.. nxt week won't really be with them le cos will be with my scg.. hmmm.. my scg suddenly chg de lor. but i know there's kaiying wif mii, also 4A jingyi, and yun's friend vanessa.. got some erh familiar faces.. but it's a kind of i'd been having this mentality i'm in 34, then no one i know also nvm la.. wasn't thinkg too much also haha.. but now suddenly change. wham. hehe. okay.. i'm not comfortable with changes? wth. this is so minor. o,o~ -.-"
lost my hp pouch. very sad. the orange mitten is really very cute. enjoy showing everyone how cute it is, and enjoy bringing it around. but that's not the main point. this pouch min has a green one, ling a blue one.. then mine orange. ling helped mii buy de. it's sort of an identity.. or symbol. ehh. more like identity? erh! haha. getting myself confused. mmm. but anyway it's very sad. and jux lately i've been missing 05A5 like hell. and i pray that ice lemon tee is still selling it. hai. or maybe i'll find it? but it's like xi wang miao mang??? becos.. it's jux a silly hp pouch in other people's eyes.. they won't bother to bring to the "lost&found"? eh. does tj have one? hm! dhs so small also can lose things and nvr get back. tj is so big... ... ...
wondering how's every o5a5'ian now.. hope everyone's happy...
[或許.慢慢地.我們之間的回憶會灰飛煙滅.但是.只要我們曾經認識彼此.曾經度過愉快的時光.那段美好的記憶將永遠存在著.一直存在著]] ((:-->ttx part of my nick. =)
`*chun*`
p.s. they are at it again. i want to sleep and shut my ears off. and i'm scared it will happen for the 3rd time. no. no. no. it won't. it will not. it would not. it will never ever happen again.
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